Monday, October 22, 2007
Everything seems to changed...
I dreaded school especially this new term where everything seems changed...A different classmates, different subjects, different kind of stress to take up...
After my 19th yrs birthday, I told myself to live the rest of my past 18 th years a different one..Immediately after I prayed that prayer, Temptation came in...The lord reali lead mi to trust His heart...I told myself I wana study more about nutition and in the end i got into food science...I've gotta go into PBPN which is the hardest subject and I know and God knows I cannot cope well with it.Though it'll be my interest, but, something I'll study till ~~~~ I did appeal...Perhaps this is an act of not trusting the Lord, really ask GOd for forgiveness...However, I've got the news that my appeal is not of success. Though the subjects that i got now i know is what i can cope, but it's not of my interest. After recieving the news, I'm kinda confused. To be happy with the news or not? It's so contradicting. I dont know what to do then to fully trust the Lord during this duifficult times.
The LOrd is good and He IS. During this time of trials, God assure me of His great love and emmanuel, the LOrd is with us. He really teaches me what is really call faith and walking a path that seems to be difficult and dark, a path I cant see but you know that everything is in God's control. SOmeone blessed mi a verse from Isaiah 46:4 ytd... This verse truly encourage me that the LOrd will sustain me throuhgout my life even until my hair turn grey. I must say that it is during this difficult times and moment, I know deep in my heart that the Lord truly understand me more than anyone in this earth in my heart instead of understanding through my mind.
Since, i'm called naysa, so shall it be that I'll wait upon the Lord to show me more...And now, I can only tell myself there is reason why I got into the current class, and always holding on to the support from the LOrd for He never let me go..I must Jia You!! FOr the sake of my Father who loves me so much.And everything I do, I must do it for ur sake.You're my boss Lord, help me to be a good steward to be responsible to take care of the things you gave me..Help me to do what I say...
The Lord is Great and He Himself is love. For where there is perfect love, all fears are gone.. Thank you God for the mercy and faithfulness...
Do you know what love truly is and feels? Ask Jesus, the Lover of our soul today.. :)
