Thursday, November 29, 2007
Feeling so sick recently...Stupid running nose...Wasted so much tissue and killing many trees... Thank God I did not go to my school study field trip..I cant imagine if I go for that field trip recently, I would feel more sick lo... Thk God... But, term test is around the corner... Feel so sianx to study...Some more...Now sick le cannot even focus...haiz...Dont know why, I'll start to fear exams and shun from studying... Wierdo right?
Recently was rather amazed by the results I got back for most of my subjects quizes... I was super stunned lo...I tot I would fail most as i did last minute study... :P ... The Lord reminded me once again that indeed, most things are really by God's power where human are aren't able to do...Really thk God for the Grace and Mercy He gave... This year is really a year I need God's dependent alot... He really taught me to learn to rely on him even for very mild incidences... And of coz, by relying on God, the results is 80% better then by my own effort...
I'm super excited for the muar trip that me, rox, yi zi, chavvone are going!! Eh...Though it's my first time going overseas (sad to say...) I've so much redundant worries and questions... What if kana attack there or so fore...rubbish lo...But, I have a rather strong feeling that I should go for this trip. Still trying to discover the main reasons for going there. I tell myself that this trip is gona be a trip where I tell myself everything is going to be set afresh... Just like after the year of sabbath, during the year of jubilee, everything set back to original... Heez... Though FCBC states nx year to be the yr of sabbath...I see it like jubilee..haha... Opps... And that trip shall be a good rest and eye opening one...Moreover, I'm going with a bunch of lovely ladies!! All fun-to-be gals...Yupx... :))
Feel so wierd.. dont know why i see today as a special day..heez.. so silly... well... this few days i had the duty of being a counsellor... It feels so "shiok" yet at a loss... I really thk God...that through my frenes...I realise the perception of looking down on my self-worth should be changed lo...I always thought no one would treasure me as a frene...But, I truly thk God where my frenes gave me the trust to share with me certain things... Though many times I can fully understand what my frenes are going through, Coz I also go through similar trials as them and infact quite used to such trials, But I dont know what to advice and how should I help other then sparing them a pair of listening ears... Truly thk God that He is training me to learn to listen instead of talk...haha... Perhaps this could be one of what God wans me to do in my ministry next time??
I'm sooooooo desperate to find out what is exactly my ministry... sometime do dislike it when i only get a few clues or not at all...hahaha...But, It's ok..I will wait...Gd things are meant to be wait...
Recently rox also shared in cell group to let us pause and reflect about this year.. I had reflected much and found out alot of changes in terms of my spiritual life and perception, many repetative, stangnants, joyous moments where many lives saved... She did mention about thinking through what we gona do after we graduate..to tink about what we reali tinking of planning for the future... And I thought I would wana want a break from being a study geak and killing brain cells... Reali feel so much to pick up skills and hobbies which i wanted to long time ago...I wanted to really learn dancing...Those modern dance and i'm serious... so interested lo... wana make my skeletons and joints flexible before getting rigid in the olden days... I love piano lots too... But I want to learn everything from scratch...but...the moment i think of all this... The $$$ sign came to my mind...haiz... why? Tell mi why?? everything nid MONEY!!! argh... but... God will provide!! Nothing is impossible for God after that piano incident...heex... :D ....
I love baking...thought of opening my own shop den design my cakes with creativity!! Wana leran designing graphics... Don wana go into science field in the future... Wana design for advertisements... Teaching? Hmm... a challenge... Recently take up teaching chinese to a P5 boy... He is rather cute...But he likes to "sha jiao" to me...He loves his monkey alot and always play that malau during tuition...and therefore he cannot focus...I dono how to discipline...don like scolding kids coz they will play taraunt... Don wana inflict unhappiness to the boy in tuition... Wan teach him in a positive environment... haiz... still love teaching though...It's my ambission since young... :)
I love this lyrics lots... Dono why...though don quite fully understand the meaning...BUt this songs touches me when i listen to it once I was down...Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through,Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete in You.
Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life. I look to You, Lord.
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in..
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You
Tired le..need rest... tata! :)
Friday, November 2, 2007
Yeah... Finally, the dream of getting a "piano" was fulfilled...
haha... Thk God for such a great gift!! Didn expect the impossible to be possible...Also thks to Mr Joshua uncle for being so obedient to God's comment.. hahaha...
Hmm...trying to pick up more skills through the net...And den realise...ITS SO HARD!!! Kepp yawning when reading the notes... Opps... :P Nevertheless, I want Jia you!!! heez... Never give up!!! hahaha...
Finally it's friday le... always waiting for this day... 2mr gona celebrate er jie's bdae...was sooooooo looking forward to it!! And yupx...hope that all our effort are not wasted...Just to see a smile in my sis's face...
Recently was super fatigue with the amount of projects dumped right infront of us...haiz...only can ask for God's strength...yupx...He has always been my strength and source of hope for each new day!! He never failed to sustain me!! Love you Lord!! heez.. (:
