Thursday, February 14, 2008
Recently my right hand has been quite persistently itching and some more at the same area... Very scared is it any allergies or rashes or what...Must pray for healing... Argh...
Kinda vexed recently with the Touch young arrow thingy... already got an answer or decision for joining or not...After much prayers and observation of how the whole volunteering thing is like on one of the sat, I felt that it wasnt really my calling to serve there. Like I said, dont want made a decison out of nothing or out of rush. But I felt like kinda irresponsible. Though I did not officially join them, but i still felt bad... I dont know how to explain to the in-charged. Haiz...felt really bad... Is it because of fear that made me come to a decision? I felt that I'm incapable of taking the kids...Felt stupid when I looked at their maths questions and assignments and couldnt get the answers...Really feel I've so much inability to teach them. How to "fight a battle" when I don even have "much upgraded" weapon? I dont know.. really dont know... But...I will buck up my courage tell her some day. I have to...Dont wana be so irresponsible. Not that touch young arrow is not good...But i considered many factors also... every dat is really a hard commitment especially next year is SIP le...duno can commit or not..
But I must say, despite all these factors, I really enjoyed that day watching those kids playing and having fun. Kids nowadays are really bright and cute...They say things which is unimaginable...For instance, my tuition boy that I took up...While teaching him the chinese words he can suddenly ask me why one of the beer company call that name... all sorts of nonsense la...but its really funny... hahaha... Still rmb one of the touch young arrow boy said 16th feb will have chicken wing when fidelia asked what event they having on that day...hahaha...lol...really funny.. I know, the volunteers there also enjoyed themselves and having much joy from the kids...
I must salute these helpers...because I learned from them that they sacrifice their time for blessing others. Especially showing much care and concerns and extending help in their homwework... I know, God has used them and mould them through Young arrow. It really required them alot of patient...The boy that I first met in young arrow is a really challenging one...heez...Forgot his name le...He simply ignored me as though i ate glass since young. That's why transparent cant see me...hahaha..I really felt awkard that day lo...dono how to communicate with him and showing him that it's ok that you ignored me, I'll give you time. Because i know, not everyone is open to strangers... But i felt stupid la, staring at the air while the boy doing homework, then look so inefficient infront of fidelia...Anyway, thats not the main point...The main point is that I wana help him in whatever I can and show him that there are people in this world that cares for him and wants to help him. Hmm...but I learned something that day...Thank God for the opportunity...Thank God that He made me realise many things which i did not notice usually.
Heex...yupx...gambatte to those volunteers ba!! You can play a part and be a great influence to the kids! Yes, you! because God has choosen you! (:
Hmm...suddenly realise all my post very long...hahaha...nevermind, God see can le.. :)heez...
Naysa
