Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Well well...At this time, I should be in my bed already...but i'm in mac now...doing my project research...yes...you didnt see wrongly...at mac at 2.05am...haiz haiz...actually also not really doing research la...eh...kinda slacking ar...

Hmm...thought of sharing some thoughts this week...Roxanne, my beloved cell leader challenge me to take up the step of faith to use the talents that God have mercifully granted to me of good purpose...I'm soooooooo sooooooo excited!! Bcoz, this qns have been lingering in my mind since years ago..."what's my purpose in life?How should I glorify and do His will?" I didnt know what my ministry would be...I saw that people ard me have started serving the community in a way...I told myself...I wana do something too...I want to be useful tool for you God...Yet, I know in my heart, the ministry I would be serving in would be something related to music and art... :)Praise God... :) but, How should I go about fulfilling it?? I'm just so excited to discover more and more...

Years ago, someone prayed for me as I went down to the altar call, that God wants to bless me in doing His purpose that no one have done before...Though in the beginning, I couldnt believe my ears, doubted my own ability...But right now, I will say:"God, I know I can't fulfill, but through you, I know I'll be lead by You and I can! "God, I wana know!!! I wana know!! I wana know!!!So that all the pain that I've gone through can finallly take flight...So that I can see the fruitfulness after much hard harvesting... :)

In every little way, Teach me God to humble before you, I want to be a faithful servant to serve my greatest only master...Even as you told me that people might forgotten abt your creation, you still faithfully take care of them. Like the clouds in the sky, people might not have time to notice the shape of it...but God will still be faithful in moulding it... :)

Yes God, Mould it with Your hands...All yours God, You are in FULL control... Hallelujah!!

Naysa

11:25 AM
Sweet dreams with Jesus by my side

Thursday, June 5, 2008

If I were to ask you, How many empty jars would you bring to the Lord each and everyday, what would be your answer?

I was truly ministered by Tommy Tenny's sermon on one of his visit to FCBC. 2Kings4:1-7 may seems like an ordinary story to me in the past. After that day's sermon, I really love this verse and I would always rmb the wonderful encounter with God.

As Tommy Tenny closes with a time for ministering to the people, he urged us to cried out to God really desperately, throwing out all that self-concious and not let Jesus passed us by. I cried out,"Jesus, I need you." And for that instant moment, I visualised that I'm in the crowd, like a blind man who does not deserve much attention from the world. yet, I do not want Jesus to passed by Me. He heard my cry. And I felt His presence and love falling down on me so coherently. It was so awesome. I felt so close to Him. I felt accepted. I felt peace. I cried in my heart, "God, my heart is so full of the world, so fatigue and drenched. Empty me so that once again I can be filled by your love once again. Let nothing occupy your love. You should be the 1st priority.

I've learned from the passage, in verse 3 when Elisha said:"Go ard and ask your neighbours for empty jars. DONT JUST ASK A FEW." In verse 6, she said to her sons when all jars were full,"...bring me another one."It makes me realise that when we really want to fully encounter God and see deliverance, we should ask BIG. Not just that few encounter with God that "satisfy" our souls. Like what Tommy Tenny said, we should always not be satisfy with that little encountering with God. When we ask more of Him, each time brings more excitement to seek Him more and more.

In verse 5, I was caught by these few phrases, "she left and afterward shut the door behind her and her sons. They brought the jars to her and she kept pouring."Yet when she asked her sons for more jars and he replied:" There is not a jar left.", the oil stopped flowing. I learned that obedience brings prosperity and disobedient hinders it. Her obedience of doing upon what was told, not only show her faith but trust in that man. This made me realise that when I'm being obedient to God, it also reflects that our God is a trustable God whom we can rely upon.

Sometimes, troubles seems overwhelming that I tend to forget the most basic truth and yet the most important truth. Recently started reading this book, "The Battle belongs to the Lord", by Joyce Meyer. This book ministered to me just by reading the 1st page. I always do not understand what does perfect love cast out ALL fears, till God spoke to me through the author.

When we go through trials and troubles, fear seems to overcome everything and this is the tme Satan grabbed the opportunity to "psycho" our minds telling us," What should you do?what should you do??" And because of the fears we had, we tend to think of solutions 1st or rather back-up plans if we didnt hear God clearly enough. We get too anxious in solving the problems. As a result, we missed the most important part and the only solution, that is seeking our God. When we fear, it only reflects that we do not have complete love from God. Because we are not very sure of God's unconditional love that will see us through difficult times, we do not see God's faithfulness in carrying us through. When we fear, we fear Satan. Not God.

Each time when I fear the things of this world, I told myself, "No, I should fear God above fearing worldly stuff." How I overcome anxiety is by praying to God, claiming God's goodness over my troubles and worshipping Him in desperate times. It works. I felt the instant peace. :)

I always thought that worshipping God is mainly for receiving healing and get ministered by God. That book taught me that worship is actually praising God for His goodness and His character. I got so engrossed with the tune at times and forgotten that God is so good for His people to adore Him. Worship is also a form of fighting a spiritual battle. Satan wants our grumbling, complaints, self-pitying, condenmation, blaming others and God except joy. Thus, all the more we should worship and worship lightens our heavy souls. Bible says, the joy of the Lord is our strength, and yes, ask God for joy for only His joy can give me strength. Though I missed the glorious times I had in the past and many times, recalling the past good memories made me feel lower, yet, they are the past. In Christ there is no condenmation. Yes God, only through you, I do not feel condemned.

2Chronicles20:1-29, is yet another great teaching I learned this few weeks. In verse 15, it says,"...For the battle is NOT yours, but GOD'S." Sometimes, I get so exhausted of thinking that I have to keep fighting this repetitive trial. In fact, I don't need to fight at all. Because in the first place, its not mine to fight. Praise God for the love. That I know, He is my weapon. My secret weapon. hee hee... :)

Wana encourage anyone who is also going through difficult times, you are not alone, lets learn together not to focus on what we don't have, but give thanks to what we have and give thanks to what we don't yet have because God is love and He shall provide. He is Jehovah Jireh. Lets worship in difficult times, concentrating on His goodness, give thanks for God is faithful. Thank Him that He is doing something in the midst of our prayers. Bring your empty jars at the cross each and everyday and allow Him to empty that burdened heart and be filled with His amazing, Unconditional love.

So what are you waiting for? Be like a sponge, soak in His agape love. (:

Naysa

11:42 AM
Sweet dreams with Jesus by my side