naysa's miracles

2009-10-19T05:37:00.000-07:00

Just when I thought I can guve up easily. Finally, putting it down... it becomes alittle hard again. Why is naysa so easily touched by small little stuff? I'm psycho-ing myself for every little actions given to me.. saying that its normal.. its normal. I'm not the only gal given this kind of treatment. Yet, the other side of my ears heard the oppsoite of what I think. Nope, naysa. You've decided to give up le. So, stand firm ok. I am so afraid that when I open up my heart once again, I will receive disappointments once again. I guess this is just my journey with God to train my insecurities. Please don't treat me nice again. If not, it will be difficult to pull myself out of this sticky situation that I stuck myself into.

2009-10-13T04:26:00.000-07:00

It’s been a long while since I last drop my words here. Perhaps it’s either just too damn busy or not wanting to be vulnerable. When it comes to writing, I just went speechless. Yet, many thoughts went through my head over and over again. Sometimes the repetitive words ringing in my head just annoys me and leaves me feeling like I’m suffocating. Dread stuck in this sticky situation. To move on or not to move on. Confusion all over the place, voice of truth getting softer and softer until it becomes muted. Yet, fearing that the truth in reality, hurts. Needing so much courage. Every type of courage. Big or small. Not knowing where else can you get that kind of courage. To stand up from where you fell. Yet, the real world is just so cruel. Aimlessly heading your life. To a place where it seems so far and dim. Not knowing what’s ahead of you and so forth. So uncertain, so uncertain. Felt so foolish to think that I actually know. Only to realize, that I knew nothing at all. I wish that at least I can live in this disillusion. Perhaps, it wldnt cause me so much pain and torment of my minds and emotions upon waking up into reality. I thought I had grown. I thought that just a few more laps and I’m off the race. Truth is, you have just stepped out two small steps. Realizing that you remains at the same spot. Its tiring to put on a mask to show that you are ok. In fact, you are not. Perhaps it may seems that I’m stress-free of exams burdens compared to the rest who are mugging out there. But, the fact that aimless life is deadlier than stress-free life. To the point where you are not able to identify your identity in Christ, to feel that what was told is just so contradicting to what you see in reality. Not being able to be myself much as I want to, I can’t. Because I fear. To be confuse over what you are good at and what you are not. Getting all fed-up with yourself for behaving certain ways, yet you cant help feeling this way. The impatience ruling over you, making you breathless. Inferiority and envying and jealousy adding on top of those to wear you even further. The struggles between your inner man and the evil man within you. Fighting a long long battle. Till you are kinda wore out. Why cant joy be everlasting? Why cant positivity last? Why is it so difficult to just take your own stand and once again draw your weapon and fight? Why doesn’t things the way you want it to be? Why must hindrances be a barrier? Why cant life just be simple and easy? I cant wait to scrap off these chanting in Jesus name. But it keeps intoxicating my minds. What do you really want, God? What do the devil wants? And what do I want too? Is this really me?

2009-06-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

Teardrops On My Guitar

Taylor Swift
Songwriters: Rose, Liz; Swift, Taylor Alison

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

2009-04-28T02:36:00.000-07:00

Oh ya... before I log out... One thksgiving for my dearest daddy God. Thank God that the issue, fears and worries that have been crowding my mind have finally been settled. Thank God that I'm so relieved to hear from my doc that I'm okie after going for my medical appointment. Praise God! Hallelujah! (:

Sometimes its pretty scary when God told me that I am His miracles. So afraid that it might be something real tough and difficult with all the sufferings and pains that I have to go through. Especially when you know, there's nothing more you can do than to only long for miracles. And sticking so closely to your saviour and nagging the whole night with prayers. But, what to do? I am still called to fulfil His purposes and be used as an instrument. Argh. I should sound happy that I'm given such priviledge right? But how come its not pretty easy to pull my lips wide and smile.Gotta allow God to further mould me. Sometime the mind is a tool that Mr Satan likes to heck into, corrupt and spoil thoroughly. Adding more fears and uncertainties. That is the reason why God says, "Guard your heart." Not easy. But I know, assuredly, I have given the key to my heart for God. So, He will help me guard it well. haha. Have you surrender the key to ur heart to Him?

Sometime it takes difficulties to draw us back to Christ. If you have been far from God or have been in difficulties, trying to understand what is going on, predicting and squeezing solutions out of ur mind... I would like to encourage you, Be still.

Be still means: Shut ur mind from thinking ur probs and solutions

Turn to Jesus
Indulge in worship

Long for His presences

Look to His truth (word of God)

SHUT UR MIND: Each day has its enough worries. Why borther to flood more troubles and worries by keep dwelling in the problems and worries? Someone shared before that even the smartest scientist only uses 5% of the brain. So since our brain capacity is limited. Why capped with more unnecessary thoughts? Why not fill 95% of ur brain space with something more meaningful. Resting ur mind. Not doing yoga k! :P

Turn to Jesus: When someone is troubled, there can only be thoughts from three people. One, yourself, two, God and three, Satan. When you finally blank ur mind, (Yes, absolutely blanking it as though you are day dreaming when attending a boring talk.) you know that at least you have tried ur part to shut ur own thoughts (even though Satan can still make noise). By shutting ur minds, God's voice that seems soft now can be MAGNIFIED. Turning ur focus off ur problems to focusing on Christ brings about a CHANGED IN PERCEPTION and SPIRITUAL REALM. Dont turn to the wrong way. Turn to Jesus! (:

Indulge in worship: Worship means dethroning Satan and enthroning Christ. When we bring glory to Christ, this pleases God. And faith is the only key to please God. Pleasing God not only brings joy to Christ, but blessings like peace and freedom flow abundantly. I tried before. Worshipping God and truly meditating upon the lyrics really brings peace that is indescribable.

Be free to worship

Long for His presences: Mere worship brings blessings. But our God is a God of how much more. He is provider and a GENEROUS God. He said: "Ask and it will be given. Seek and you will find. Knock and the door will be open." Worship not for the sake of reaching a key of the song. But worship, longing for His presences. Long to dwell in His house. Start entering into His sanctuary of Praise.

Be bold in His presences

Look to His truth (word of God): Knowing God's truth will set us FREE. His truth is the answer to ur problems. The word of God is a lamp and light unto our feet. Guiding and directing our path so that we dont stumble and fall.

Hope this can help you better. Gambatte kudasai. (:

Oh ya, wanna use this chance to thk Kala for inviting us to her dad's 50th birthday. Its such a special time to gather the gals. (: Appreciate lots babe. >.<

Hmm, what else to share? So far like that lo. Oh ya... scratching heads for this year's 21st birthday celebration... But nothing special la. Dun wanna have the same thingy as what the other 21 yrs had. The buffet and chalet.... I wanna have something special and warmth with my lovely gals and loved ones. (:

Oh, talking about this, I rmbed a tinge in my heart! Last few weeks attended the Celebration Ministry Dinner and before the session ends, my church guitarist gave a quiz. The most astonishing thing on that day is the MIST guitar strings! Argh. My eyes are so sticky on the prize. Cant leave a sight off! argh... there goes my strings. My feet and courage just cant cooperate. Its like my butt sticking on my chair. So, I didn rush out and answer. There goes my two guitars at home. broken strings as decoration.

Okie, what else to crap? Yeah. Completed SOL 1 last sun. Finally.... phew. haha.

Was wondering f anyone thinks alike. I think that one of the most tiring thing is to guess what's in another person's mind. And sometime, things which you wanna avoid you cant seems to avoid much. And the things you longed for, may not be what you can achieve. Pretty frustrating huh. But for one thing I know, all that it is, only God can orchestrate and only God is in control.

The next few weeks gotta be only work, work and work. Pray, pray and pray. And of coz, I'm still gonna squeeze in FUN time and REST. Not any kind of rest. But SURRENDER rest.

Okie. ta ta. -.-

2009-04-28T02:01:00.000-07:00

Hey there!

Its been so long since I last drop my words here. :) Hmm just an update, currently still job hunting for perm jobs. Been assigned to work in CISCO system as a admin staff for about a month. Am feeling grateful to God for the provision. But I know, there's more to come. (:

I'm feeling kinda wierd at this crossroad of life. Its like you know, it comes to a point where you really have to make your decision. No longer the "following life routine" kind of lifestyle, where you know that you have to get to primary school, then secondary, then a JC or Poly. After which get to a Uni study a faculty that you like and stuff.

Sometimes its hard not to use green eyes to look at ur frenes enrolling to Uni. Well... that's life. Have money, you can pursue your dreams. So for me, I'll just wait for my dad in heaven to drop loads of money to me. haha.

Hmm, sounds like I am complaining again. Haha. Okie, better say some good stuff. Finally Rox and Leo is getting married in few weeks time! Time really flies... Very soon we can mess up her new house! Haha. Cant wait to create chaos in her hse. Haha. Opps. Nahx...

Hmm... suddenly brain stucked. Dunno what to fill in. Okie den. I shall end here. Sayonara! :D

2009-03-03T23:47:00.000-08:00

Hey there... Heard that The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus is coming to Singapore soon... Reminds me of a nice song from the Twilight movie... Its Your Guardian Angel... Thought of introducing it as I think some parts of the lyrics relates God speaking to me and how He protects and loves me... (: and I loved the melody too... Rockz!! Here's the lyrics and the link if you wana listen to the song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRehmX3zlwE&NR=1

Enjoy! (:

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus lyrics - Your Guardian Angel

Title: Your Guardian Angel
Artist: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Album: RJA
Year: 2006
Submitted by: Amber Tirey

When I see your smile

tears roll down my face

I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out

how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,

and I know ill find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all,

even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's ok. it's ok. it's ok.

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing

and stars are falling all for us

days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever.

I'll be there for you through it all,

even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my

you're my

my true love

my whole heart

please don't throw that away.

Cause I'm here, for you

please don't walk away and

please tell me you'll stay, stay...

Use me as you will

pull my strings just for a thrill

and I know ill be okay

though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

even if saving you sends me to heaven.

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

even if saving you sends me to heaven.

2009-03-03T02:42:00.000-08:00

Hey there my lovely blog! :) hahaha... Finally get to update my blog again... :) Yupx... recently so busy shaking legs at home dazing... hahaha... Finally I'm out of any exams cum major projects cum assignments stress!! hee hee... now is a time of waiting for my Diploma cert and seeking jobs to enter into the REAL work society... argh...damn broke... reali needed $$$ lots to support my own finances, pay debts, contribute to home expenses and save up for school fees... Of cause not forgetting my wants: feeding my wardrobe with new clothes, change a new spec (since my degree and astigmatism increases le... sob sob.. :'( ... ), do soemthing to my hair before it really look like grass... opps... hahaha... AND most importantly... grap the opportunity to meet up with my frenes!! So miss them and the crappy times... had lost contact with them since all of us so damn busy with our own lives... really miss them lots...

Really had no idea what job I'm gonna work and no idea in which field should I head to... Its like I'm at a cross road, wanting to figure out which direction or paths should I walk... It gets frightening to know that I'm gonna enter into work life... Kinda fearful what lies ahead... Wana further study... Something related to design, (so that I can design graphics and my dream to work in an advertising company) something with music, (to fill my passions for music to the fullest) something with counselling to assist the needy in any way that I could to fulfill God's word in the bible; "to be the light and salt of the world", or maybe teaching? (since I really love to teach) and perhaps something relating to cooking (hee hee... Be one of the famous FEMALE CHEF...) So many options that I wana choose... But yet, so limited choice...as many jobs need certain qualification and working experiences in that field which I don't have... argh...

Sometime I wish I just had the courage to do certain things...but I simply cant... haiz... Oh, last weeks I went to Pasir Ris Escape with Ling and my sis... had great time hanging out with bith lovely ladies... I overcomed the fear of sitting on a 360 degree ride... hahaha... (ok, I consider the ride something that can still be "tolerated")... I screamed my lungs out... hahaha... pity my sis for sitting next to me... hahaha... I was so fearful that I grapped her arms so tightly until the next day it is still kinda painful... Opps... hee hee... Yupx... And I loved go-cart!! very fun... make me feel like getting a driving license... (well... a second thought for that coz I'ma real directory idiot) hahaha... I think I will waste alot of petrol or fuel money on driving in Singapore round and round... hahaha... Yupx..

Okie dokie, let me introduce a super nice song that I really really like alot... Enjoy! :D

Artist: Hillsong
Album: Saviour King
Title: In Your Freedom

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You in my brokenness
No other King could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart

[Pre-Chorus]
I have nothing more
Than all You offer me
I have nothing else
That's of worth to me

[Chorus]
I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all I want
You're all I need

I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You my cares released

[Bridge]
In Your freedom I will live
In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion
I offer devotion

Oh, before I forget, let me do a small advertising... If any of you have job lobang must tell me okie? :) hee hee... God bless... (:

2009-01-19T22:45:00.000-08:00

Feeling so sick and weak this few days...down with cough and alittle flu..can't imagine had to gurp down some chemicals containing ammonium citrate and etc.... Argh... ok, its cough mixture...haha...I got freak out when I saw the word on the bottle of the medicine: "POISON". hahaha... I really thought the pharmacy wana kill me...hahaha... Argh...I want my pineapple tart!! :'( (wait for me pineapple tarts! I'm gonna eat u up aft new yr!! haha)

Few minutes ago, I was reading through Jacelyn Tay's testimony forwarded by Rox... so encouraged by her testimony... Felt ashame that when trials came, I tend to forget God's faithful character... Deceptions came in, followed by self-pitying lingered my mind.. Thank God that despite my small faith... He is still faithful... He spoke once again. Through leo's worship session during a combined cell in rox and leo's new hse... We sang magnificient and how great is our God. Those words hit me hard. Aren't the truth is God is greater than any circumstances in life because He IS a magnificient God!

Few days ago, I'm given an assignment to write a reflective journal of my life in Temasek Poly. I thank God for giving me such assignment because 1. I cause myself to think of something good to write instead of only focusing on the bad points. 2. I can praise God as I reflect! :) In summary, the 2 best words to describe my poly life is: Learning and Shaping. Or rather Refining. A learning point to stand up when I fell and shaping my characters and personality. After all, I can better accept that it is not achievements that count most. But it is the process of learning that is most significant. At least through it all, God never let go of my hands. Praise you God. :)

divineblueprints.wordpress.com/.../walk-with-me/

Counting down to few more weeks and I'm graduating from TP le!! Yeah! Can't wait. But at the same time, uncertain what my new journey will be like. To go where, to serve where. But one thing I know, that My God, He leads. He is the way.

www.cwlinc.com/ls.Gods-Way-My-Way.htm

Which way would u choose?

www.beavoice.com/christtees.htm

ok... Lastly Happy CNY !! :)

2008-12-29T03:46:00.000-08:00

Hee hee...Ok, I'm distracted again... I know that I have to go do my stuff...Tonns of things to clear... BUT...my whole brain is so distracted with so many things...cant focus if I never complain to God.... :/

I just got the news that this coming friday is my chorale rehearsal at TC... Shucks!! Its such a sudden news... I'm still thinking that: well, chorale for next year service wont be that fast de la...

Ok, Its a kinda sudden decision made few wks ago in joining the chorale team. Worse is that I pulled Chavonne along with me to chorale (thought I felt God's promting), though signed up together but not in the same team.... Argh...at least Chavonne have Yvonne with her...

I started to feel fearful..About what will happen during rehearsal... I know nobody in my team...and adding on, my dancing skills sucks... Yes...it sucks... though I've "some forms of training in dancing" BUT, It is still sucks.... Argh... I'm very tempted to regret my decision... I thought of requesting to change to another group... Felt kinda sad that I cant join in the fun with my frenes... no fun.. no crap... argh... (my complaining again)

But, in the corner if my mind, I dare not ask for a change... And I felt that God ask me: "When I first prompt you to join chorale, are you doing it for your friends or for me?" Of course when God ask me that I can only shut up... But I will still dread loneliness...

I cant imagine myself dancing like awfully in the next service...Argh........ But God say that in order to do great things for Him, I've to first go through training and even doing the things I dont like... Argh... God!! Help me not to dread worship you on stage... Yes, with many big actions all the more make me feel wierd... but I believed its all for good... The usual saying, "God, I'm weak, But You are strong. Help me to overcome my limitations ba. And I know You can. You are greater than anything of this world. You are the overcomer! "

PERFECT LOVE CAST OUT ALL FEARS

Amen!!

2008-12-23T02:11:00.000-08:00

Hey dear frenes....

Merry Xmas! :) As I was on my way to service last sunday, God asked me a question... "what is the best gift you ever received?"

The first thing that came into my mind was, "haha...God, You are so cute...Of course I would say is You! :)" Then I think about it, actually, the best gift that I received, something tangible, I would say is my keyboard... :) That is the most expensive gift... Blessed by God through Uncle Joshua.... Haha... Till now, I'm still thankful for the unexpected gift... Above all, really thk God that his obedience to God's calling brought forth blessing to my sisters... (well, most of my sister enjoy learning and playing the keyboard....) Though it gets frustrating that I just cant understand and coordinate in playing.... (as usual, my strong determination to get things sone the way I wish...)...I'm still thankful... And I remembered, he gave me the gift and said to me, " God wants me to know that I can ask BIG!"

Hee hee... Then I thought further, actually, I also thank God for the people He brought forth in my life... :) I thank God for my family... Though we may not be the richest family, yet, it is through trials and God's love that transform us and brought us closer... :) Praise God... And I like it when I get to disturb and bully my sisters...hahaha...Thk God for them and even my parents...without them (their special DNA to form me), there would be no cai yun... :) And truly, thank you God... Thank God even for all the friends He brought to me... where we crapped around and do silly things together... :)

Ok, main thing is, I thank God that the best intangible yet SO REAL gift... is Jesus, my saviour, my best friend, my soulmate, my lover and my Father. :) Without you, I'm not who I am today. Bringing joy, peace, hope, comfort, love and even the most acceptive person. Thank you God. Thank you for choosing me as your child. SO un-deserving. Yet, your grace and mercy did so. :)

This xmas, I would like to urge you (whoever you are, if you happen to glance through this post), if you have never open up your heart to Jesus, never knew who He is, I encourage you to ask of Him and welcome Him to your life. I did it 6 yrs ago. I believed that you will never regret for taking this step. Just like me. :) May He fill you and family's heart and life with His abundant love. May you experience the awesome love of Him and be amazed at His loving presence.

:) Merry Xmas! :)

2008-11-19T04:08:00.000-08:00

Verse 1
You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Chorus:
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

Verse 2:
Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Chorus:
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

Encouragement from My God! :)

2008-11-06T03:32:00.000-08:00

I love this passage that God taught me... :) Good things are mend to share.. Here are my learning points! :)

In 1 sam 30:1-6, it talks about David and his men upon arrival at Ziklag, saw the devastating scenes; where the city had been attacked and their wives and children captived by the Amalekties. Their natural reaction is of cause, worried and upset. They were so discouraged that they even wept until no more strength and energy.

On top of their city destroyed, people were contemplating of stoning the team's leader, David. He was "greatly distressed".

Despite facing such awful circumstances, they defeated the Amalekites and David's army rescued their family. So, what causes the victory?

The turning point comes when David strenghtened himself in God. (verse 6) So what makes him have such strength? How can we strengthen or encourage ourselves when we are so discouraged and life just turns upside down?

2 learning points to apply:

1. Remember God's work - what He has done

Choosing to review and recall God's work, the miracles, blessings, request answered, help and etc. will help you STOP thinking negative, START being positive! (During difficult times, satan love to wisper to ur ears: "See, I told you, God is not working." You are a child of God! This means you have authority to shut Satan by rejecting the deceptions that he has implanted in ur mind. Arent we fulfilling God's command by being positive and dwelling in good stuff? (tentatively cant find verse, eh...share when I've found..)

So, remember, TO REMEMBER God's goodness :)

2. Remember God's promises - where ur source of motivation is from

Joshua 1:9 says- "Be strong and of good courage; ......for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Isnt our great creator great? :) Emmanuel. Indeed He is. He is with us. And for us and holing us always. He does not lie nor does He have bad prediction. Infact, he do not need to predict! He already SEE our future! So, all the more, we should trust in Him.... Yes, life is tough. Its not easy. It just can be that yucky. But, the above all these, the greatest is His Love. Love that surpasses from generation to generation, even if heaven and earth fades, It does not perish; His love! :)

Lets learn from David, to wipe any the tears and strengthen ourselves in God and LEAVE your burdens to Him. Lets do so together. :)

References from: (hee hee. don't know correct format or not.. :P)
RBC Ministries. Managing Editors: Tim Gustafson. Senior Editor: Clair Hess. Editors: Anne et al. When life goes bad.Our Daily Bread.Volume 52, Number 9, 10, 11. Article: 8 January, Tuesday. Retrieved on: 29th Oct 2008.

God Spoke... :)

2008-10-24T02:38:00.000-07:00

Finally, I "pen-ing" down my thoughts again after and in the midst of storms in life. Yes, It was as ever a fatigue weeks with MP, health and home. Its like I'm a spiritual warrior fighting against the evil ones non-stop. And I admit, I'm dried up. Dead beat!

Can you image going through rounds 0f repetative things for many weeks? Adding on to loads of troubles along... 1. limited ingredients for projects and getting the stuff from the company is like, you can obtain your materials next year. 2. getting materials from TSO for preparation of microbe agar is also difficult. For sure, we will recieve scoldings for wanting the stuff. 3. our samples shelf life almost 4 out of 5 times fail. 4. Upteen times of preparing peptone in dilution tubes aseptically will still ended up with mold growth. 5. Once, the micro lab oven spoiled. And all the agar we prepare for testing sets. And we got no choice but to heart-achingly threw the agar made into bins. Its like, countless time of wasting materials. 6. Some misunderstandings with team mates when it comes to STUBBORN teammates, its worse. 7. Once we already prepared the raw materials for mass production, (no kidding, 3kg of onions like that) there is actually no gas for cooking. Argh!! how can it be so coincidental! 8. your supervisor is kinda difficult to communicate when he could just briefly said some advices to your probs and making it sound so chicken feed, yet in fact, its more than just like that. Moreover, he is very time-concious.... Argh..Phi4:8 told us to think of good stuff so that we can chase out negative thoughts and allow God to use our mind the way He desires! So, ok, though my supervisor is not as easy to communicate with. But i thk God that he did us help when we are really stucked with certain situation.

Adding on, recently, my back (lumbar spine) has been feeling aching. Quite bad certain days until the only solution to relieve pain is lying down. Went to consult a doctor and the doc said its alit like architis and gave me medicine to relieve pain. What madden me is that I was not given an opportunity to even take a look at my X-ray film when I paid for the X-ray test. Its not the price that matters most to me. I requested to look at the x-ray from the x-ray centre and the nurse asked me a quite redundant question, "why would you want the x-ray film?" In my heart I was like thinking, "come on la, the answer should be obvious." I replied,"i want to take a look at my x-ray film." and she just push me away by saying, "O, its a confidential information between the doctor and x-ray examiner." I thought that is even an unacceptable reason... Why cant I see my x-ray film since its my body?? argh...So which means, I cant really dance that freely and vigourously which a Hip-Hop dance requires. :( my dreams dashed.

There are also some issues at home. Kinda taken aback upon recieving the news and was disappointed by it. Why, of all things, such unneccessary things happened which arouses many unneccessary fears at home? But looking back, God is good and in control. All things happen for good. This bad situation actually bring daddy's salvation. Praise God! Hallelujah! Really hoping that things will turn out and maintain fine...

Realise my complaints are so LONG!

Looking back, I wonder why life now seems so bad compared to older days. I grumbled and felt disappointed most of the time. Going school is my most dreaded place. Life just, dulls. I felt that life is meaningless and why would God wants to create people into this world and suffer sufferings.

Until a day, God lead me to read a familiar book, "purpose driven life" by Rick Warren. It is really an inspiring book. And Suddenly I had a revelation from God.

I started to realise that there is a purpose in life. I mean infact, EVERY life. Be it that you are a believer or not, you are still created in this world for a purpose. Before you are conceived in your mother's womb, you ARE already conceived in God's mind. Col1:16b (msg), "For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible...everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in him." Yes, and God told me that life's purpose is FOR Him and WITH Him.

I come to realise why I find my life so dull especially when I do not achieve great things like I used to have.

I mistakenly aligned acheiving great things or achievements in life = life purpose fulfilled... Actually it is not at all. Because it is only self-satisfying and self-seeking. And Its a choice I CHOOSE to made. And WANT to have. It may not be align with God's plan... Yupx....

So, I'm learning to surrender and let go... Learning to trust in God's plan. Will you? :)

2008-09-22T01:37:00.000-07:00

Wow...was doing some clearing up the inbox and junk mails I received and saw that I actually wrote this and send to many...

Hey there, Let me share my view of love. Do you know what is really love? I never knew what love is until I felt it. True love is secured when you know that you can always rely on someone for help in every situation. When i cried, someone is there to cry with me and lending me his shoulder to lie on, when i fall, someone carries me and held me by his right hand, when i laugh, he laughs with me, when i'm feeling down and blue, he tapped me on the head and give me a warmth hug that ease my pain and sorrows away. When i'm in trouble, I looked to him for help and give me peace that i needed most. He gives me shelter in rainny days, and give me joy in sunny days. when i did silly things, he puts a gentle smile on his face. Everything and anyhting that happens in my life, I share with him because i know that he is the most available to seek to than anyone in this busy society. When i do not know how to complete my work, he gives me wisdom and guidance. And yes, there is such person, he is my most beloved friend Jesus Christ. He wants to be friend with you and extend this awesome love to you because he IS love. Will you allow him to do so? :)

Well...I guess it has been some time since I forgotten what this true love is le...So, thank God that He showed me this email to reminds me of how sweet it is to recognise a Father's love. So deep and wide that is bigger than any circumstances in this world. Praise God. :)

So, What is your definition of love? May you also feel tangibly the love of our great God just like the fortunate me... :)

2008-09-07T22:40:00.001-07:00

Hee...grandma story again..

Recently attended my sis's skool Junior band at Victoria Concert Hall, a place full of memories... So proud of her for playing well in the band! Good job Christina!! :) At least she sort of "help me fulfill" the wish of joining band in skool...haiz haiz...still sketching my head thinking why bcoz of the band uniform that I didnt join band...haiz haiz...

One thing that leaves a deep impression that night is the Singapore chinese girl's school band. The last song so impressed me! Especially the drummer!! She's so cool!! Rock with the beat that night!! So adore drum now!!!! wana learn drum!! But my hands and feets doesnt seems to obey my commands...argh! Feel like an idiot that cant play drum...hahaha...its ok! I'm gona grab opportunity where I get to touch the drum some day...hahaha...So, be prepared to stuck your ear drum with as many cotton bud as you want k...hahaha...

So excited to serve God in Melvin's and Yvonne's wedding that is like less than a week? :) Though not sure of everything will turn out fine or not...but every part of me is so thrilled and excited!!! :) Cant wait for the big dreams to come true...so wanting it to be real yet afraid that it wouldnt be the right motive. Do not send me if God my motive is wrong... That would defeat the purpose of glorifying You, God. Still considering if I should move on from the comfort zone to try something big and learn more... If God, that is your will, show it to me coherently... :)

This week, allow me to show case this picture to you... Can you guess the wordings? :)

hee...dont torture your eyeballs if you cant figure out k k... :)

2008-08-25T04:07:00.000-07:00

hee hee....as promised on the previous entries... below is the picture of the super nice aunty I know in Prima....Tadah!!! :)

She looked so "ci xiang" right!!! I so miss her.... :) and the yummy food she cook...hahaha...me pig...

Yup...This one of my SIP pal, Patricia... photo taken in the QA lab meeting room...hee hee... :P

Introducing...This is the new me!! Well...you can say I "zi lian"...but also not really la...I miss me long straight hair...so gonna do something to my hair very soon...so...this is for memory... :) Nice Nice?? i so not use to it lo...I thought I look auntie la...sob sob...But the hair stylist gave me a hair that at least I look different...Trust him la...some more recommended by those pretty babes in church... yupx..I must say it took me like 2 days to accept my hair... (during perming, I told God:" God let me wake up from my dream and I'll get back my long straight hair...)hahaha...But now is a time of esteem... Psalms 139:14...

Okie, this few weeks nothing much...Busy with my Major Projects and stuff...Went through many nights without sleeping... (hope my panda eyes can't be seen...) hee hee... But, of cause, I'll never forget about hanging out with these lovely gals!!! :)

Below is me and Zi...ok...the back looks pretty green...but we are not in the forest..Its Changi Terminal 3!! i love shopping there...very spacious and class... hahaha..

And this is the cheeky Chavonne!! :) also mei nu rite?? Hanging at our favourite spot... Starbucks... :) wow...recalling nack about last week, really SOOOOO look forward to the next few outing with her... Just learn violin from her... Ok, I'm not as "pro" as her and I really know nuts about violin...but I SIMPLY LOVE VIOLIN SOOOOOO MUCH!!!! its SOOOOOO cool!!!!!! :) But, very tiring la...need to hold the violin in a proper position and the bow.... haiz....

Learning violin does not mean oushing my favourite guitar away!! :) ok...this guitar is not mine... a very nice stuff told me that he could lend me to try (since I so curious how does electric guitar works...) and more honoured to know that I'm the first customer he allowed...hee hee...Thank God for the favour...and electric guitar is really cool...but when played by my hands...its ruined...so noisy...But I learned something...that playing an electric guitar does not use full chords... Another Yamaha guy sort of "performed" for us as pursuaded by us...and WOW!! He's really good with that thingy!!! :)

And tracking back...we did meet out Fiona and chat at Kovan last month...haha...so miss her...and this is one of he crappy photo we took outside MRT...hahaha...look at rainbow and Yi Zi...they look like they are waiting for their Mr Right...hahaha...ok, my face is I want to sleep k k not day dreaming of Mr Right k... :P Second look I look like I'm admiring Fiona's phone...hahaha.... :P
Hee hee... I super love this crappy photo... Though we look alittle dumb and ugly...but its just so natural...hahaha...me and Christina's expression looked like photo copied 100%...hahaha...So funny...

Yes yes yes...I'm still that childish...Simply adore this is cute bear in the "make a bear" shop...that day when we go shop Ling's bdae gift..This bear caught my attention!!! It looks big here but actually very small... Cant wait to buy one home and cuddle...hahaha...look at its "pathetic" eyes that is saying to me"buy me home!!!"... hahaha...

Ok...update, last friday Roxanne took me to the new place at Pasir Ris (next to downtown east) called the Eee hub... I love the merry-go-round at the entrance of the shopping mall... :) the dazzling lights made me feel like my troubles and worries fade away with it as the light changes colours and patterns... And we ate Gelare... I like the chocolate fudge with caramel and brownie thingy... :) super yummy... But I still prefer Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream... haha...

Sounds fattening... but thk God, had an exercise last monday in the Hip Hop dance class...That was my 1st lesson...wow... It was sooooooooooooooooooo soooooooooo tiring.... and frankly speaking, I dont dance as well as others like my sis, rainbow.... I admit...and the moment we stepped in, I thought: " wow...is this really beginner class???it looks like intermediate to me..." hahaha... but I enjoy the lessons... very fun and lots of perspiring... its out of passion and enjoyment to join...but I suffered lots of muscle-crampped and everything for about 3 days lo...so can you imagine its really tough!! :)

last sunday went to Pasir Ris with my cell group and we took neo print!! Its like don't know how many decades that I went to took neo-print...kind of miss it...and so fun with all that "hurry and post" tingy....hahaha...hope I can show you guys the pics next round!! :)

ok...finish nagging le....let me show you a picture drew to express God's love for everyone...The pictures drew Lord are my gratitudes towards you. For your faithfulness and love and concern shower upon me this few years.... May you be encouraged by it!! :)

Drew this picture (though not very professionally drew) during my dowest moment when God told me that He is the ONLY one who hold the key to my heart... so, will you open up your heart to this great God who holds the key to unlock your life? :)

2008-07-26T09:27:00.000-07:00

Wow...time really fly by so fast...In a split second, 4months gone... Here I;m.."graduating" from my attachment.... :)

Glad that this 4 months of agony has finally come to an end...But, come to think of it, despite the suffocation I got from those demanding, nasty aunties, (opps), where I'm given no choice but to obey their demands and stuff....I kinda miss that place alittle towards the end of the attachment... :) Not those aunties of course, other God send people.... Those that cheering my boring, routine-based work with craps and guiding me along the way...For all that, I'm thankful for God. Even towards nasty people, which, I'm kinda used to meeting these group of people, I believed, that these people are send to me for specific purpose. I must agree to that statement. Because, during the downs, God always reminded me what is stated in the bible, "if your enermy give you a slap on ur cheek, give the other." of course, I didn let them slap me, but God always reminded me to treat evil with good. Many times, I admit I got so fed-up and felt injustice, I admit, I cursed. (sorry God that I sinned against you) One time, one particular auntie, as usual, treat you nice in request to do her task, which I'm already so tied up with my work, when I always am the only intern doing OT, sometimes rushing to another place for appointment and feeling really exhausted when at night I still need to do my projects with my demanding project mates... Ok, that auntie, I alittle falled out with her. I gave her a cold shoulder when she talk to me. (well, thats my "best" way for venting my anger. I kept silent, despite she speaking ill of me to my collegues infront of me using dialects which i do not understand...I tolerated. Suddently, few minutes later, God did his miraculous work, which upon reflecting back, I can't help, standing amazed and thankful. Praising Him for the work. :)

He caused my anger to ceased. All that negative perceptions, all that frustration and injustice just gone....and peace of God transcend. Suddenly, God caused me to understand and stand in the auntie's shoe. Caused me to understand that she also wants to go home earlier and needed my help. In feeling alittle guilty that my attitude weren't very edifying to Christ, I went ahead to ask her, "do you need my help?" And I could see that this qns shocked her and blesses her. I guessed? The devil told me, "cai yun, how could you grant help for this nasty person!!! Don't be stupid, she is too reliant, and abusing your help!!"... And the angel, on the other side told me, "cai yun, treat the evil with good and your Heavenly Father who sees it will bless you." Well, the auntie, of course, asked me to help her did some stuff. And she looks happy. She told all her collegues that I helped her. On top of that, most surprisingly, something that I didn't expect to hear from my ears, she said, "sorry ah, just now I siao siao de..., tomorrow I treat you cake." :) :) I was really happy to hear that. I didnt expect her to apologise for her fault. hahaha.Not happy that I got cake to bite, but happy that she suddenly treat me so well. Wow!! Thats something I really wana thk God! :) I learned that, when you treat the nasty with good, despite feeling injusticed and helpless, and situation that seems a NO WAY, God miraculously turned it around!! :) Despite this incident, still, old mistake is hard to ammend, next few wekks, she still demanded...But at least, the cold war with her was slowly diminishing. :) Hallelujah... :)

On top of the downs, there are also many ups... :) Really memories that I'll remember. Sweet talks from some "psychos" (opps) are common, anyway, I'm used to it le...Anyway, these doesn't work for me. I'll only wait for my Mr Prince...hahaha...I missed the aunties and uncles from warehouse, production line and the canteen auntie (the big cook!!)...

This particular auntie, she not only could cook very delicious food, filling my stomach, she is also, the warmest. She filled my heart with love. Really so thank God for her presence le. Though she speaks cantonese sometimes, i couldnt understand, but she really dote on me alot. SHe concerns and bless. I took a photo with her the 2nd last day. Will show you guys some day. She's kinda old le. About 60+ or 70 i think. hahaha...She blessed my marriage and told me to have one boy and one gal. haha...I thought that was still quite far away...haha...I wana bless her with something during my last day, I went to print a photo taken with her for her. She received this simple gift, and told me I can be her grand-daughter...hahaha...And she looked like she's my granny. :) since young, my grandma and grandpa from both side are either not very close, dont communicate much, or they are not in this world le. This auntie, is the only auntie that made me feel the love from grandparents... Really thk God. And God told me, this love you felt from her, is my love. I knew, this sweet love, is what love is call. And God's love is so deep. Deeper than I could understand. Like the daily bread i read, a story was told about a boy, who dig a sand hole at the beach. This act was witness by a man, and he asked the boy, "what are you doing?" and the little boy replied, " I'm digging a hole and filling the sea into that hole." Weren't we doing the same thing? Some believers have in the sense, put our tiny winy concepts in line with God's wide and unexplainable thoughts. SOmetime, we tried to understand His plan, however, fact is fact. His thougths are not our thoughts. It is TOO vast. Beyond understanding and description. Arent we silly? :)

BAck to Prima. The people in the packer production line was really friendly and helpful. That supervisor, really damn funny. They knew that those evil aunties are always stepping on top of these poor interns, he told me on the last day', "since to day is your last day le, right immediately after 6pm, after receiving your appraisal, go and scold those aunties and use you log book hit their head..." hahahaha... and though he kinda ah beng, but he quite nice sometime la...Treat me drink though his approach in treating me well is kinda funny. He always laughed at my silly mistakes. Well, he is that kind of, "hard-mouth, soft-heart person". hahaha...His staff, one of the China guy, gives me a very deep impression. What is so impressive about him is that he will helped me carry heavy (and I meant really heavy) samples down without needing me to ask a favour from him. And I really feel so thankful. I liked that taking initiative attitude. I liked that. Action speaks louder than words. Sometime I feel really touched. He told me, "this kind of tough job is meant for guys." and I really feel that being a gal really benefits...hahaha... Really thk God for sending this angel to help me. :)

I also misses those aunties and uncles from warehouse, canteen and production line. Needing to carry samples from packing production to R and D lab with a super ugly, orbit market trolley, thanks to it, those funny uncles loves calling me aunties and some said I go market. hahaha. I misses those time. Though abit, diao.... -_-"", but I misses those memories. :) One particular auntie, I believed the best cook in prima, she is one of the auntie whom I treasured my friendship with and one who left me the most impression. :) She really dotes on me alot with her heart-felt concerns and love shower for us. SO tangible. :) And on the last day of my sip, she especially cooked something special for us. :) I took a photo with her during the second last day of my sip, will post up and show to you guys some days k!! She bless me with nice words and even blesses my marriage, blessing me with a baby boy and gal...hahaha...I thought that was still so far away... :) I wana bless her for all that thoughtfulness and kindness, so i went to print out that picture for her. Upon recieving it, she looks happy. She's kinda aged, says about 60 plus or 70 years old. Though sometime she speaks cantonese which i do not understand, but I still felt so blessed by her. I enjoyed every conversation with her and even asked her for her cooking recipe and instruction for cooking. hahaha...I think I'm her no.1 fans!! :) She is like another angel send by God... Despite the fact that my grandmas and grandpas from both side of my parents either arent that close with, or they are already not in this world since young, this auntie, is the only auntie who gave me that kind of grandparent's feeling. :) I thought wow, that is also an act of love from God. :)

God reminded me that arent this type of love my love for you? I could grapse a better understanding of what God's love is. I cant help, feeling moved and really thankful. God's love is so deep and intimate. Beyond human's understanding. So vast and wide, yet, heart-felt. God is so amazing. Thank you daddy for all that love for me. :)

Another group of people I'll miss, are my frene's department. A group of crappy, fun-filled people. Always making me laugh like mad. :) Really thankful. Thankful that they invited me for dinner on the last day...However, due to some reasons, I couldnt go despite that I really wanted to. haiz.... Though i admit, that I envied my frenes that their department either hold a gathering or party for on their last day, while I don't have, but I'm still thankful, that at least I have these frenes. I treasured those moments. God gave. I treasure. praise God. Will remember these memories for life. :)

Reflecting my attachment, thankful for the guidance, help from people, gaining friendship, those that i truly treasure... Above all, haha...I think I've added more criteria for my Mr right...hahaha...I think ar, from my list of criteria, he seems to perfect to be real. I think I should also be his Ms Perfect...if not that wouldnt be fair...haha...wait wait...but its ok...this isnt a big problem now...Right now, I want to get my life right and settle whatever issues and deal with it with God. Like SOL taught us, we need to be a whole before we meet our partners. Not hafl me, half him to make up a whole. We both need to be complete. :) Yupx... right now, my studies, my life, my careers....haiz... How I wish God will just show me at least 1/4 or a glipse of my future...haha...Some how, I felt in my heart, he is speaking to me about something. Yet, unsure, uncertain. i duno what I heard from some people is what God wans to speak to me about. I kinda feel that its alittle impossible given my incapabilities...I'll wait for confirmation. Wait for God. Will just pray that God will speak to me coherently and prepare me when the time comes... :)

In case my faithful readers do not know what I'm busy lately, let me update you guys... :) After i finished my sip, my MP (major project) starts immediately. On top of that I've a sip report to rush, which, the deadline is on 8th Aug. And honestly, I admit that I haven started anything yet. I admit, that I felt lost and empty in the midst of business. I thought that being busy will fill my heart and mind, leaving no time to entertain funny thoughts implotted by Satan, but I was wrong. Instead, all the more I'm thrown with tonnes of workload to clear, all the more I escaped. (which I'm quite capable of doing it often). I procastinated. I was left all exhausted and lost much motivation in studying which i always had during secondary school...I felt so lost in this path. I couldnt see what's ahead. All the more I procastinated, all the more I felt guilty, that I allowed so much valuable time slipped pass me. Sometime, I rather spend time worshipping God instead of doing my work or sleeping. I had wrong perception that sleeping is a waste of time. Yet, feeling worshippping God is an excuse from doing work.

Many time, I asked God, "God, did I made the wrong choice? Did I hear you wrong? Is it that I took a wrong path in opting out from retail management to applied food science and nutrition. Is my choice not your choice? But I chose to believe and trust that my God wouldnt lied to me. You told me that making this choice is for your purpose. For that very statement, I hold on till today. For your sake God. I told Siling that this world is too suffocating for me to breathe and live. SHe thought I wanted to end my life... That was funny...hahaha...If I were to end my life, I think I would have done that many years ago. Praise to God, that I admit, due to the fear of death, I did not. hahaha... praise God. Sometimes, I wanted joy and simple life that much that I thought I could just sacrifice the success and prosperity which i longed for. To the extend of dropping the idea of being a "wonder-woman" working at high rise building, one who do not need to depend so much on man, to being just a housewife. I just want joy. SOmething I felt that Satan had stolen it away. Like bible claimed, a theft, came to steal and kill. He stole my joy and wanted to destroy me. But my God is greater. I know He is redeemer, He redeems my joy and strength when I'm weak. He is my strength. In times of trouble, I know He is there. He never leaves me nor fosake me.

A story i read from daily bread was told about a man witnessing a little boy digging hole along the beach one fine day. The man asked that little boy, "what are you doing?" and the boy replied, "I'm putting in the sea into the hole!"... Aren't we like this little boy many times? Aren't we too, foolishly aligning our tiny winy thoughts into God's deep and wide thoughts? Like what the bible states, His thoughts are not our thoughts and His ways are not our ways..." And yes, His thoughts are too vast beyond human understanding and beyond description. Its like, we are like tiny ants living among those "gigantic" human. We could only see that 0.01 % of His thoughts. So, lets not think any more. Thinking more doesnt seems to give more solutions but more white hairs...hahaha...

Though I felt alittle uncertain of my future, do not know what will do, feeling that what I do is not meaningful enuff...Wondering if I should continue studying U after graduation even though I haven even graduate, but I know, God is still in Heaven, sitted on the throne. He is still in control. :) Because I do not know what is ahead, you know. For that, I hold on. For you God, I hold on.

What about you guys? Are you feeling dry or tired of your life? or tired from reading my loooooooooong post? hahaha... If you feel that emptiness, dont look for temporary things to fill your heart. For our souls doesnt belong to the world, but God. So let God satisfy our soul with his living water. his agape love, that quest us, that we shall not thirst. :) Ask of Him today, be prepared to encounter Him in a tangible way that you cannot imagine. Start asking now! :)

God's words specially for you :)

2008-07-08T13:32:00.000-07:00

At first thought of putting in some pictures and what crazy stuff happening last few weeks...But, just felt like putting in some words of encouragement here...You may not read my blog, nor know about my blog's existence, nor know me. But, I'm sure if God wants to use me to encourage you, He will let His will be done. Perhaps SOME of my faithful readers might ask:"Who?"... Well, I will just reply, for the one that while reading, Holy Spirit tells you:"you are the one." For someone going through hard time recently..Dont know if the words spoken are encouragable..But, I'm pretty sure if God has chosen this opportunity, I grab it.... :)

Sometimes along the journey, We are searching for something that satisfy our souls, satisfy our broken and empty hearts.... Life goes on and on and may seems like a routine. Perhaps nothing seems to bring forth joy...No matter what we try to search and try to bring it, it seems futile. Missing the good old times are a torment. Because, its the past. Yet, that physical mind just can't seems to shake it off that easily. I know, I went through that. I hate that torment of reminding of the good old times. It not only brings in bitterness but self-pitying. I'm sure nobody wants to live in torment. And yes, I told myself, I;m sick and tired of self-blaming. remember? There is hope is God! We are His BELOVED child. And YES, I repeat, BELOVED. Not beloved child.

He TRULY loves us to the extend of dying for our sin. The Almighty, who knew NO sin at all, bare ALL that shame and sin for us. We do not deserve. Just bcoz we do not deserve, all the more this reflects HIS GREAT love. IN the bible it states that:'Perfect love cast out all fears." I never understand what it TRULY meant until I had a greater understanding of God's perfect love. DOn't you see that God loves you that He will see you through? He knows everything about you, every need. From the biggest to the smallest. Every thoughts, every bad times, every emotions and struggles, every frustration, every envious, every decision making. In short, EVERYTHING. Aren't you so precious in His sight? :)

And it pains Him to see you upset. It was NEVER His untention to upset you. Nor make you go through every pain and struggles. It was ALL done for He loved you. To change you and mould you. You are DEEPLY loved. People around you do not understand. People may not know whats going through your mind, but, He knows. EXACTLY EVERYTHING.

Wana encourage you that I know its hard, why not just TRY, at least to fix your eyes upon the Lord above all that troubles. For when you seek God first, He SHALL grant your needs and COMPLETE your joy. Our God provides. And never does He provides little nor insufficient. He Provides FULLY and COMPLETELY. You may seek for sense of belonging. Let me tell you, your sense of belonging is in Christ. It is only with Him. That you find peace and find comfort. Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted. And yes, He wants to comfort you.

You are a wonderful creation. Ps 139:14 says that,"I thank you for I know that I'm fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. I know that FULL well." Do you truly understand it full well? If you do not, ask God to help you. I know its difficult. It took me many years before I can accept myself and everything about me and what God give without condemning myself much more.

In christ there is no condemnation. And yes, in Jesus name, I pray that God heal all your hurts. Be it emotionally, mentally and spiritually. May you be refreshed in God's love once again. And that this love is so coherently that you shall NOT doubt. Because of Jesus, we are not judged. No one can judge. They have no authorities. Yes, only God can. SO no matter what other people commented, they are arrows created by Satan to put us down.

Take up that courage again and lift up the foot that satan have trampled on top of your head! Jia You! :) God loves you. May He send forth angels to guide you. May you always be refreshed by the living water of God. That you shall not thirst again. :) Yes, may God be gentle with him. I submit him and family unto your hands. In Jesus name I prayed, amen.

Transforming destiny

2008-06-11T11:25:00.000-07:00

Well well...At this time, I should be in my bed already...but i'm in mac now...doing my project research...yes...you didnt see wrongly...at mac at 2.05am...haiz haiz...actually also not really doing research la...eh...kinda slacking ar...

Hmm...thought of sharing some thoughts this week...Roxanne, my beloved cell leader challenge me to take up the step of faith to use the talents that God have mercifully granted to me of good purpose...I'm soooooooo sooooooo excited!! Bcoz, this qns have been lingering in my mind since years ago..."what's my purpose in life?How should I glorify and do His will?" I didnt know what my ministry would be...I saw that people ard me have started serving the community in a way...I told myself...I wana do something too...I want to be useful tool for you God...Yet, I know in my heart, the ministry I would be serving in would be something related to music and art... :)Praise God... :) but, How should I go about fulfilling it?? I'm just so excited to discover more and more...

Years ago, someone prayed for me as I went down to the altar call, that God wants to bless me in doing His purpose that no one have done before...Though in the beginning, I couldnt believe my ears, doubted my own ability...But right now, I will say:"God, I know I can't fulfill, but through you, I know I'll be lead by You and I can! "God, I wana know!!! I wana know!! I wana know!!!So that all the pain that I've gone through can finallly take flight...So that I can see the fruitfulness after much hard harvesting... :)

In every little way, Teach me God to humble before you, I want to be a faithful servant to serve my greatest only master...Even as you told me that people might forgotten abt your creation, you still faithfully take care of them. Like the clouds in the sky, people might not have time to notice the shape of it...but God will still be faithful in moulding it... :)

Yes God, Mould it with Your hands...All yours God, You are in FULL control... Hallelujah!!

Naysa

How Many Empty Jars Would You Bring?

2008-06-05T11:42:00.000-07:00

If I were to ask you, How many empty jars would you bring to the Lord each and everyday, what would be your answer?

I was truly ministered by Tommy Tenny's sermon on one of his visit to FCBC. 2Kings4:1-7 may seems like an ordinary story to me in the past. After that day's sermon, I really love this verse and I would always rmb the wonderful encounter with God.

As Tommy Tenny closes with a time for ministering to the people, he urged us to cried out to God really desperately, throwing out all that self-concious and not let Jesus passed us by. I cried out,"Jesus, I need you." And for that instant moment, I visualised that I'm in the crowd, like a blind man who does not deserve much attention from the world. yet, I do not want Jesus to passed by Me. He heard my cry. And I felt His presence and love falling down on me so coherently. It was so awesome. I felt so close to Him. I felt accepted. I felt peace. I cried in my heart, "God, my heart is so full of the world, so fatigue and drenched. Empty me so that once again I can be filled by your love once again. Let nothing occupy your love. You should be the 1st priority.

I've learned from the passage, in verse 3 when Elisha said:"Go ard and ask your neighbours for empty jars. DONT JUST ASK A FEW." In verse 6, she said to her sons when all jars were full,"...bring me another one."It makes me realise that when we really want to fully encounter God and see deliverance, we should ask BIG. Not just that few encounter with God that "satisfy" our souls. Like what Tommy Tenny said, we should always not be satisfy with that little encountering with God. When we ask more of Him, each time brings more excitement to seek Him more and more.

In verse 5, I was caught by these few phrases, "she left and afterward shut the door behind her and her sons. They brought the jars to her and she kept pouring."Yet when she asked her sons for more jars and he replied:" There is not a jar left.", the oil stopped flowing. I learned that obedience brings prosperity and disobedient hinders it. Her obedience of doing upon what was told, not only show her faith but trust in that man. This made me realise that when I'm being obedient to God, it also reflects that our God is a trustable God whom we can rely upon.

Sometimes, troubles seems overwhelming that I tend to forget the most basic truth and yet the most important truth. Recently started reading this book, "The Battle belongs to the Lord", by Joyce Meyer. This book ministered to me just by reading the 1st page. I always do not understand what does perfect love cast out ALL fears, till God spoke to me through the author.

When we go through trials and troubles, fear seems to overcome everything and this is the tme Satan grabbed the opportunity to "psycho" our minds telling us," What should you do?what should you do??" And because of the fears we had, we tend to think of solutions 1st or rather back-up plans if we didnt hear God clearly enough. We get too anxious in solving the problems. As a result, we missed the most important part and the only solution, that is seeking our God. When we fear, it only reflects that we do not have complete love from God. Because we are not very sure of God's unconditional love that will see us through difficult times, we do not see God's faithfulness in carrying us through. When we fear, we fear Satan. Not God.

Each time when I fear the things of this world, I told myself, "No, I should fear God above fearing worldly stuff." How I overcome anxiety is by praying to God, claiming God's goodness over my troubles and worshipping Him in desperate times. It works. I felt the instant peace. :)

I always thought that worshipping God is mainly for receiving healing and get ministered by God. That book taught me that worship is actually praising God for His goodness and His character. I got so engrossed with the tune at times and forgotten that God is so good for His people to adore Him. Worship is also a form of fighting a spiritual battle. Satan wants our grumbling, complaints, self-pitying, condenmation, blaming others and God except joy. Thus, all the more we should worship and worship lightens our heavy souls. Bible says, the joy of the Lord is our strength, and yes, ask God for joy for only His joy can give me strength. Though I missed the glorious times I had in the past and many times, recalling the past good memories made me feel lower, yet, they are the past. In Christ there is no condenmation. Yes God, only through you, I do not feel condemned.

2Chronicles20:1-29, is yet another great teaching I learned this few weeks. In verse 15, it says,"...For the battle is NOT yours, but GOD'S." Sometimes, I get so exhausted of thinking that I have to keep fighting this repetitive trial. In fact, I don't need to fight at all. Because in the first place, its not mine to fight. Praise God for the love. That I know, He is my weapon. My secret weapon. hee hee... :)

Wana encourage anyone who is also going through difficult times, you are not alone, lets learn together not to focus on what we don't have, but give thanks to what we have and give thanks to what we don't yet have because God is love and He shall provide. He is Jehovah Jireh. Lets worship in difficult times, concentrating on His goodness, give thanks for God is faithful. Thank Him that He is doing something in the midst of our prayers. Bring your empty jars at the cross each and everyday and allow Him to empty that burdened heart and be filled with His amazing, Unconditional love.

So what are you waiting for? Be like a sponge, soak in His agape love. (:

Naysa

All out of control

2008-04-26T04:57:00.001-07:00

Hey there!

Finally updated my blog with granny stories again...

Yes, the picture on the bottom is how i describe my weeks recently...

Recently stucked in Prima for attachment...Many routine works and as busy as ever. From morning till evening...My section (NIR) is the first lab test, after mine, I've to pass on the section to my collegues to do the other test... So, very busy lo... But, It was good to be busy. You never know that the next time u look at ur watch, its already time to knock off... :)

In the midst of SIP, i still have to do my project for one of the module, Food safety.. Its very tiring..Trying to find time to get things done...Its also a routine to doze off in Train on the way home, during break and back home...Every where I go, I just feel like my "computer monitor" shut down le...Yet i cant simply rest mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually....

I'm like this guy on the top...Super exhausted...

Struggling with doing project with my project mates...Always having difficulties that I'm left with all out of my control...Feeling frustrated with many injustice unspeakable infront of them, yet helpless and couldnt do anything. All I wished is that God will grant me justice and righteousness and rescue me from the evil ones. I only want to dwell in God's house. Away from the evil world. SO sick and tired of this ruined society. Can't wait for yr 3 to end. Where's my hope and miracles this time? Seems so far away...Far far away..Every project meeting, I dreaded... I know in my mind that God is right beside me, yet, circumstances seems to be greater than feeling God is nearme and helping me. Sorry God. I just simply felt lost in what to do.

I learned that, requesting is actually unneccessary. Why should we request something frm people where in the first place, we have no right and we should not assume that people will give what we request. I learned along the weeks too, that hurts actually takes longer time to be healed than anger. One can vent anger in that moment of frustration. Yet, hurt takes longer time to sew back the brokeness in the heart, ease the pain and to forget unhappiness memories...

I learned that forgiveness is not easy. Sometimes, forgiveness is not only forgetting what the other party does to hurt you, but grace and mercy is required. Now i really understand why God allows me to go through certain test. I suddenly come to realised in my heart that God is really so forgiving. Even I myself find it so hard to forgive irritaing and frustrating ppl, whats more us, a wretch and sinners? A holy God who can't stand a single sin could actually fogive our iniquities...praise God, bcoz, I noe, I dont deserve this grace, yet u gave. I'm speechless Lord. Its really hard to be Christ-liked. Really hard.

Sometimes, things happen and I really hope that by making sense out of everything would comfort my soul. Its in vain. I concluded. Instead, I felt more rejected and helpless. I condemned myself more and envied more. Its really ALL out of control. Familiar trials seems to be coming back again. Yet, I m a grown up christian, no longer a baby. But I don't seems to be handling thigs maturely. The older I get, the more I dreaded. I feel like remaining as a child, so carefree and shower with the love of their parents. They do not need to worry about each day, what to eat, what to do for project and work, not worrying about money issue, not worrying about who will hurt you and feel helpless. Everyday just rely upon their parents bcoz, in their mind, the only one they can rely on is their parents...And yes, indeed, God, you are the only one I can rely to.

Only God knows the problems we faced nw and those yet to come. Only he knows how we feel exactly. Only He can understands and love us like NO one does.Only He is the awesome, rightful judge. Even if the world rejects you, He does not. Even if I feel that I'm so different from the world, the world sees me as wierdo, but God sees me as unique and precious child of his. I know. That I said this out of assurance that God loves me. His love is firm and stable than this falling world. Nothing can shake away His love and Nothing can separate His love from me.

Beloved friends, if you are a sis or bro-in-christ, would appreciate alot for the thoughtful prayers for me...hee...First time request prayers like that...hahaaha...But I would really be grateful for that...Can't wait for more miracles to come...If you have a prayer request, drop by at my tag board k...Or call or sms me. I would love to serve and bless. Many thanks!!! (:

In His strength,

Naysa :)

Song Intro

2008-04-03T22:13:00.000-07:00

Hey my beloved faithful readers.... (if they are any??!!)

Hahaha...Let Naysa DJ intro a song to you...super nice...I liked...But, as usual, a com idiot like me don't know how to load in my blog... -_-"" heex...pie say... Get the link to watch the video! For more nice songs recommendation, tune next time! (:

Lyrics, songs by Stream of Praise (SOP)

讚美之泉 Stream of Praise- 寶貴十架 Precious Cross

V1
主耶稣我感谢你
你的身体为我而拾
待我出黑暗
进入光明国度
使我再次能看见

V2
主耶稣我感谢你
你的宝血为我而流
宝贵十架上
医治恩典涌流
使我完全得自由

Chorus
宝贵十架的大能赐我生命
主耶稣我俯伏敬拜你
宝贵十架的救恩是你所立的约
你的爱永远不会改变

Ending
你的爱不改变

Repeat V1, V2, chorus X3, ending

You can listen to the songs from this link…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uybTsziXQik&feature=related

Sing, sing, sing & Dance, dance, dance For the Lord with me... (:

Naysa

Dreaded SIP

2008-04-03T03:20:00.000-07:00

Praise God that I finally know which company I'm attached to for SIP...Thank God that it is near my house and I'm paid...hahaha...though very low rate...but still thk God that I can save some amount of money for buying a new hp...My hp really cmi ar...cant stand it...But need God's providence... I'm attached to Prima Limited, a very big food company I heard... I think I'll be doing lab work, Like R & D or QC/QA work...but, I felt kinda fearful...Because I feel that my studies quite bad thus don't know if i cna cope well in my sip...Quite fearful that I do alot of mistakes and stuff...Felt lack of ability...But God is my ability...He will help me in tough time. Ps 94:19 says:" When anxiety was great within m, your consolation brought joy to my soul." yes lord, I need joy from you. That your presence with me is my comfort and joy. I'm weak but you are strong.

Kinda overwhelm by many things. Projects and assignments in the midst of sip...felt a havey burdens over me suddenly...Many things beyond me, I dont know how to react, I dont know what should I do, I don't know how to overcome my emotions. I envy, yes, I admit. Lord, forgive me for sinning against you and breaking your heart so many times. Such a wrench like me, need a savior. In desperate times, It is when You shine forth your glory. I'm small, you are big. You magnify Jesus. Only you. Help me to fix my eyes on you Jesus. Whatever disppointments, whatever saddness, whatever anxiety, worries and feeling of lost, Lord, i bunder it up, i hand over to You at the cross. You told me nothing is impossible, show me Lord. For you are a God who keep promises. You who implanted the ear, hears, You who formed the eyes, see, you who teaches me, do not lack knowledge. You promises not to forsake me, neglect me, no matter what people did to me, You shall not. It is you O lord that pick me up. In the days of distress, It is only You who found me. You who pick this neglected life. You and you only can I trust. Man failed. But you don't. Help me trust in you in any circumstances. Draw me closer to you as draw near to me. Turn my tears into tears of joy. Thank You Jesus Christ, papa... Amen...

Naysa

Thanksgiving over the weeks :)

2008-04-03T02:55:00.000-07:00

Hey people :)

It has been such a long time ever since I update my blog during this holiday…I have so much things to share with you guys…however, it was kinda long & I’m lazy to type so much ar…so lets just summarise the key points ba… :)

Praise God for this few days holidays…though short yet enjoyable. I had lotsa rest and much picking up of guitar skills, worshipping God. Holy spirit is really the best teacher I ever have… He taught me new strumming methods, teaching me how to read scores for the pop and classical guitar… Hallelujah!! Without Jesus I wouldn’t be able to learn these skills… I’m soooooo looking forward to the next lesson He’ll be teaching me!! :)

Praise God for granting me an opportunity to attend Stream of praise session during the week of sanctification for Chinese services. It was such a tremendous experience. Not only did God taught me what is a true worship and the meaning of worship, how does worshipper worship and stuff, even the meaning of sacrifice of praise, I felt God’s presence strongly and was so ministered by the songs they sang esp. the last day. Really moved. Started to love Chinese worship sooooo much… Like a lot of songs especially one that speaks to me, the meaning is, “in the dessert, the Lord shall bring stream of water into it…” and another song, cant rmb the song title, even if olive tree and vine tree does not prosper and bear much fruits, it still praises God…” Ya, it spoke to me, even if my studies aren’t that good, couldn’t do a lot of tasks, things fail, circumstances doesn’t seems optimistic, disappointment and rejections frm ppl, still gif thks to God…Its hard…But Lord, I’m want to…Teach me how to Lord…hahaha…pie say…direct translation frm Chinese…this prove how lousy my Chinese is…opps…

I like this songs, 我要向高山擧目by SOP, and its actions…so kawaii !!! Feel like going back to my childhood time… (: God, I don’t wana grow up le…hahaha… here are the lyrics and video…

Sorry, dont know how to upload from youtube...heez...so pls click to check out... :)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Lzn76m-z6R0

Next, also praise God for granting me an opportunity to attend a “concert performance” by our brothers in FCBC, the Ebenezer band…The songs & lyrics were written by one of Ps Eugene’s son, Ben Seow.

I told myself on that day before I attend the concert, “well, I’m just attending a concert, so just enjoy the songs, the music & the performance they are gonna present to the audience…” However, as I reflect upon it, I was amazed by the work of the Lord. Yes, the music, the songs, the lighting, the lyrics, the singing, was good. But, the Lord’s Love is greater. That day, I brought back with me the assurance and refreshment of God’s love and faithfulness. I told myself, “How could anyone have so much descriptions, so much inspiration in writing songs to the Lord?” And immediately, I got a gentle answer from the Lord, It’s because of God’s love. That caused them to write and sing unto the Lord. Praise God. Their band also shared their testimony… I was very encouraged and praise our great great papa in Heaven for transforming many lives. I remembered recently God lead me to read back the journals I wrote few years ago, Me too, is transformed by God. The same God who transformed many lives could transform your life too!! (: Really thank Him, if God hasn’t pick up this broken ,life of mine, I guess I’m still lost I the dessert, I wouldn’t be who and where I am now… I was very encouraged by them too…That I always told God, “God, I want to shine for you one day!! I want to use the talents that you have blessed me with to honor you and glorify you!! Let your will be done through me Lord…” But, I always think that I’m too young to accomplish much. I always felt that I’m not so equipped to shine for God. However, after that day’s concert, I feel that with God, ALL things are possible. Because it is God who is working. Not me. I’m just a useful tool used by him to fulfill his work. Amen!! In the bible, It was said, do not let people look down on you because you are young… Amen.. Thk God for using Ebenezer to speak to me… Hallelujah!

Bless you a song that left a deep impression on me, the lyrics touched me… I was reminded of God's love for us that nothing we do could exchange for it... went to search for the lyrics and praise God, I found it finally. Sorry ben, borrowed your lyrics without your permission if it was a song wrote specially for another person…opps…Hope you guys are blessed by the wordings… (:

Nothing in Exchange

V1

Where do I begin, where do I even start?

Of everything that keeps us apart

And I ask for nothing, but ill ask just this one thing..

Do you feel the same?

Cos I love you, and theres nothing you can do about that

Nothing you can say, nothing will outweigh

Cos theres no price I would not pay.

And I ask for..

Chorus

Nothing in exchange

You may never have heard of me

I could just be a distant figure

And you can hurt me over and over...

But I will still love and care for you

And I will still wait for you

And I hope that youll love me back, and I hope that you love me back

If only you could realise, if only you could see

My love is all that you need

And this song will not be enough, cos words just are not enough

To explain the depth of my love

My love is strong, stronger than youll ever know

Nothing you can do, nothing you can say, would be able to repay

And I give this love for..Nothing in exchange'

(chrous)

Anywhere you are, I would be there for you

And to the depths of the grave, I went there for you

Come and take my hand, and your search will come to an end

Trust me when I say, that I am the way

When I speak the truth, that I am the truth

And I have given you my life, cos I am the life

No matter what the cost, I would do it again

Cos when everything is lost, my love will remain

Nothing in exchange

You may not even know who I am

I might just be a distant figure

And you might break my heart over and over..

But unconditional love

Came down to die from heaven above

Just for the hope that youll love me back

Yes, His great Love is nothing in exchange. He loved you to exchange his life for you. He exchanged the pain, the shame, and the rejections for your life. Would you turn your eyes to him? He may be a distant figure, but, if you choose to welcome him into your life, he is closer than you could discover. And yes, his unconditional love transformed lives. He longs for you to love him back…Will you response? (:

Naysa

A very important email I saw...wana share to all...

2008-02-27T20:43:00.000-08:00

Below is the email I saw:

Through a Rapist's Eyes (No Joke)

This is important information for females of ALL ages.

When this was sent to me, I was told to forward it to my lady friends, but I forwarded it to most everyone in my address book. My men friends have female friends and this
information is too important to miss someone.

Please pass it along

A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:

1) The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed . They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.

2) The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove quickly . Many of them carry scissors around specifically to cut clothing.

3) They also look for women on their cell phone , searching through their purse, or doing other activities while walking because they are off-guard and can be easily overpowered.

4) Men are most likely to attack & rape in the early morning, between 5:00a.m. and 8:30a.m.

5) The number one place women are abducted from/attacked is grocery store parking lots . Number two: is office parking lots/garages. Number three: is public restrooms.

6) The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to another location where they don't have to worry about getting caught.

7) Only 2% said they carried weapons because rape carries a 3-5 year sentence but rape with a weapon is 15-20 years.

8) If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn't worth it because it will be time-consuming.

9) These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas , or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.

Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you're not worth it.

10) Several defense mechanisms he taught us are: If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question, like what time is it, or make general small talk: 'I can't believe it is so cold out here,' 'we're in for a bad winter.' Now you've seen their face and could identify them in a line-up; you lose appeal as a target.

11) If someone is coming toward you , hold out your hands in front of you and yell STOP or STAY BACK ! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they'd leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back.
Again, they are looking for an EASY target.

12) If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes) , yell I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it out will be a deterrent.

13) If someone grabs you , you can't beat them with strength but you can by outsmarting them If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the
arm (between the elbow and armpit) OR in the upper inner thigh VERY VERY HARD. One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands - the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it - it hurts.

14) After the initial hit, always GO for the GROIN. I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy's parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you'll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble and he's out of there.

15) When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible . The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.

16) Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don't dismiss it, go with your instincts!!!

You may feel a little silly at the time, but you'd feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.

1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do!

2.Learned this from a tourist guide in New Orleans . If a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM . Toss it away from you....chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you, and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!

3.If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car, kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won't see you, but everybody else will. This has saved lives.

4.Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping, eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc.) DON'T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side, put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR, LOCK THE DOORS AND LEAVE.

a. If someone is in the car with a gun to your head DO NOT DRIVE OFF, repeat: DO NOT DRIVE OFF! Instead gun the engine and speed into anything, wrecking the car. Your Air Bag will save you. If the person is in the back seat they will get the worst of it. As soon as the car crashes bail out and run. It is better than having them find your body in a remote location.

5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot or parking garage:

A.) Be aware: look around you, look into your car, at the passenger side floor, and in the back seat.

B.) If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.

C.) Look at the car parked on the driver's side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out.

IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)

6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot. This is especially true at NIGHT!)

7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times. And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN, preferably in a zigzag pattern!

8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP! It may get you raped or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well-educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked 'for help' into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.

9. Another Safety Point: Someone just told me that her friend heard a crying baby on her porch the night before last, and she called the police because it was late and she thought it was weird. The police told her 'Whatever you do, DO NOT open the door.'

The lady then said that it sounded like the baby had crawled near a window, and she was worried that it would crawl to the street and get run over. The policeman said, 'We already have a unit on the way, whatever you do, DO NOT open the door.' He told her that they think a serial killer has a baby's cry recorded and uses it to coax women out of their homes thinking that someone dropped off a baby. He said they have not verified it , but have had several calls by women saying that they hear baby's cries outside their doors when they're home alone at night.

Please pass this on and DO NOT open the door for a crying baby ----This
should be taken seriously because the Crying Baby theory was mentioned on America's Most Wanted this past Saturday when they profiled the serial killer in Louisiana.

I'd like you to forward this to all the women you know. It may save a life. A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle. I was going to send this to the ladies only, but guys, if you love your mothers, wives, sisters, daughters, etc., you may want to pass it onto them, as well.

Please forward to everyone u know k! :)

Everyone changes?

2008-02-21T21:38:00.000-08:00

HAiz haiz....

One more paper and I'm done!!!!!!!!!! :) Freedom here i come!!!
Just now went to look at hui ming's blog...Always love reading her blog...so entertaining...got so many interesting thing that I have never encounter before...hahaha...

I went to peep at her frenes' link to see got any one i know...And I found few blogs of familiar faces...It's glad to see that everyone had changed...And everyone seems happier?! :) however, I was just so stunned to see some of them changing so much...hahaha... :)

Hmm...after glancing through so many blog entries...sud feel like putting more pics to my blog..its so boring and plain...eh..As usual, a com idiot like...maybe u can wait for another 2 years for new photos to be posted up?? hahaha...nahx...

Recently, hands got better le...thk God for the healing...Amazingly, not the med that heals me but God...hahaha... The med seems to have side effects that doing what its SUPPOSED to do...hahaha...waste my money siax...well...treat it like charity to the doc??heez...opps...Wads funny is that me and ling went to the polyclinic tgt and initially wanted a female doc...but must wait for 7 more ppl...so sian lo...then i got a male doc...He is so different frm the rest of the doc? Know why? Usually doc will only say this few sentences :"where are you unwell?... hmm...ok...dont worry I will prescriped some med for you...ok, you can go get ur med already.."
But this doc ar...I asked so many qns then he answered me mountains of answers...and his slang is soooooooooooo "juan she" cannot understand what he says lo...lol...the whole day just nod nod, orrh...like that huh...but actually dun understand wad he says...hahahaha....

But thk Hui Ming and Ling for the concern!! Big hugs and kiss to you gals!! Muacks! :)

Ganbatte Naysa!!!!!!!!!!!

Itchy Itchy Itchy

2008-02-14T20:09:00.000-08:00

Recently my right hand has been quite persistently itching and some more at the same area... Very scared is it any allergies or rashes or what...Must pray for healing... Argh...

Kinda vexed recently with the Touch young arrow thingy... already got an answer or decision for joining or not...After much prayers and observation of how the whole volunteering thing is like on one of the sat, I felt that it wasnt really my calling to serve there. Like I said, dont want made a decison out of nothing or out of rush. But I felt like kinda irresponsible. Though I did not officially join them, but i still felt bad... I dont know how to explain to the in-charged. Haiz...felt really bad... Is it because of fear that made me come to a decision? I felt that I'm incapable of taking the kids...Felt stupid when I looked at their maths questions and assignments and couldnt get the answers...Really feel I've so much inability to teach them. How to "fight a battle" when I don even have "much upgraded" weapon? I dont know.. really dont know... But...I will buck up my courage tell her some day. I have to...Dont wana be so irresponsible. Not that touch young arrow is not good...But i considered many factors also... every dat is really a hard commitment especially next year is SIP le...duno can commit or not..

But I must say, despite all these factors, I really enjoyed that day watching those kids playing and having fun. Kids nowadays are really bright and cute...They say things which is unimaginable...For instance, my tuition boy that I took up...While teaching him the chinese words he can suddenly ask me why one of the beer company call that name... all sorts of nonsense la...but its really funny... hahaha... Still rmb one of the touch young arrow boy said 16th feb will have chicken wing when fidelia asked what event they having on that day...hahaha...lol...really funny.. I know, the volunteers there also enjoyed themselves and having much joy from the kids...

I must salute these helpers...because I learned from them that they sacrifice their time for blessing others. Especially showing much care and concerns and extending help in their homwework... I know, God has used them and mould them through Young arrow. It really required them alot of patient...The boy that I first met in young arrow is a really challenging one...heez...Forgot his name le...He simply ignored me as though i ate glass since young. That's why transparent cant see me...hahaha..I really felt awkard that day lo...dono how to communicate with him and showing him that it's ok that you ignored me, I'll give you time. Because i know, not everyone is open to strangers... But i felt stupid la, staring at the air while the boy doing homework, then look so inefficient infront of fidelia...Anyway, thats not the main point...The main point is that I wana help him in whatever I can and show him that there are people in this world that cares for him and wants to help him. Hmm...but I learned something that day...Thank God for the opportunity...Thank God that He made me realise many things which i did not notice usually.

Heex...yupx...gambatte to those volunteers ba!! You can play a part and be a great influence to the kids! Yes, you! because God has choosen you! (:

Hmm...suddenly realise all my post very long...hahaha...nevermind, God see can le.. :)heez...

Naysa

Naysa DJ ... Song intro!! (:

2008-02-13T23:16:00.000-08:00

SECOND CHANCE "In A Valley By The Sea" 2007 Hillsong United EP Lyrics

VERSE 1
You called my name
Reached out Your hand
Restored my life
And I was redeemed
The moment You entered my life
Amazing grace
Christ gave that day
My life was changed
Went from my shoulders
Fell the weight of my sin

CHORUS
So it's with everything I am
I reach out for Your hand
The hope that changed a second chance I've gained
On You I throw my life
Casting all my fears aside
How could greater love than this
Ever possibly exist

VERSE 2
Consume my thoughts
As I rest in You
I'm now in love with a Saviour
Bearing the marks of His love

CHORUS
(REPEAT)

BRIDGE
So I wait upon You now
With my hands released to You
Where a little faith's enough
To see mountains lift and move
Yeah I wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails
(REPEAT 2 TIMES)

Go: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3mCA2Q67Ps to listen to the song...Eh, not the video k...heex...

BREAK FREE (an even faster tempo) "In A Valley By The Sea" 2007 Hillsong United EP Lyrics

VERSE 1
Would you believe me, would you listen if I told you that
There is a love that makes the way, it never holds you back
Who would have thought that God would give his one and only Son
Taken a stand upon the cross to show his perfect love

PRE-CHORUS
So would you break free, would you break free get up and dance, in His love
His love never ends, yeah.

CHORUS
There's no escaping the truth, there's no mistaking its you
God forever we'll get up and dance, get up and dance and praise you
There's no escaping your love, there's no mistaking your light
Across the world we will get up and dance, get up and dance and praise you

VERSE 2
Now is the time to take this freedom that has come our way
Offer our lives to see the glory of His name

BRIDGE
Never, all our days
We are holy Lord, holding onto all your ways
We are holding on, holding on to all you've said and you've done
We are holding on to your love
Now we will dance

Simply love this song's lyrics...

Love Enough "In A Valley By The Sea" 2007 Hillsong United EP Lyrics

LOVE ENOUGH

VERSE 1
Your love's enough to see the broken hearts
Get a brand new start, with a brand new heart
As the faithful hope in things unseen
You're enough to see all their things & dreams come alive

PRE-CHORUS
Cause we're living in the Saviour today
And this day is what we have now
In this moment we have chosen to praise
And to change in how we live now

CHORUS
Your love that broke my fall
It's more than enough that I needed
Cause I've never known better
And I've never known better

VERSE 2
Your love's enough to see the humbled man
Find the cause of Christ, with his outstretched hands
As the crippled grabs his mat
To walk enough, to save him from the pain he bore
Cause we're living in the Saviour today

PRE-CHORUS

CHORUS 2
Your love that broke my fall
It's more then enough that I needed
Cause I've never known better
And I've never known better
This love will see me soar
It's more than enough that I needed
Cause I've never known better
And I've never known better

BRIDGE
My Saviour
You'll never let me go
My life is now secure
My Saviour
You'll never let me go
And in your hands, my future's bright and

CHORUS 2
(REPEAT 2 TIMES)

A day with my beloved

2008-02-13T22:36:00.000-08:00

Hey pals...

Happy valentine's day! So, anybody joining my single club today?hahaha...Nope, i shd phrase it in another way, anybody joining me for a date with my beloved Jesus? :)

Well...Nothing much to update this few days...Just wana give a few testimony about the good work God has done both in my life and my family's. :) Praise God...

Recently daay hurt one of his finger, dont know what reason, but heard that it's due to bitten by some unknown "creature"...hahaha... It was quite bad..To the extend that his hands got so swollen and the doc told him might need operation to remove the dirt inside the finger. I know he is really worried...And we too are worried...We prayed for his healing, hoping that he would not need to go for any surgery...Till one day, after the reunion dinner night, our family came together to prayed for his healing. Me and my sister was so touched that first time ever, he would accept our prayers for him. Can you imagine someone so against christianity would do that? He even gave thanks to God after the prayer. Can you see the heart and plans of God? It is soooooooooo awesome and wonderful beyond my description. Because I know He loves my dad, He lead him to draw near to Him. :) Praise God for the mercy.

Another day on the 2nd day of new year, we again come to pray for healing for him. And once again the doc encourage him to do a surgery from SCG. And i know he is really worried especially due to the monetary prob...SO my sister invited him to sunday chinese service to allow people in church to pray for healing for him... And by God's grace, he came for service. Though he have not recieved Christ yet, but i know that it's the beginning of salvation and God's miracle in him, where a life is transforming soon! :) hallelujiah... thank God that at least he did not leave the service half way... :)

Amazingly, his finger's swelling reduced and heard that the dirt inside his finger were almost completely removed. But, he did a minor surgery... And was much better. Though a surgery was did, I still praise God that he answered to our prayers to heal him... praise God. =)

I'm still hoping to see more miraculous thing happen to him... by God's plan...I trust in God...That hope doesn't disappoint us. Because our hope is in the lord. :)

Praise God for answering my prayer. Recently, kinda broke...But God blessed me with 2 days free taxi ride lei....Heez...hwo could that be right? Somemore the person giving me free ride is a total strangers to me...hahaha...one stone kill two birds..not only am i not late, but also no cash paid..heez...dono is this counted as lunky or taking advantages...For the details of the free taxi ride, next blog share with you guys ba... (heez..also duno if anyone will view my granny blog..so long

Naysa

This part is dedicated to my beloved cousin, yi zi, from God to her...

Once a little girl came seeking after me, I speak to her gently with comforting words, I said:"here i am my daughter..." but she could not hear me, her ears was covered by the evil's one voice saying to her,"God did not love you, so he will not answer your prayers...". I am standing beside her, but she could not see me, because her eyes are so distracted by the world. When she laughed and when she cried, when she is pondering about many things in her life and couldnt get any solutions or ways, when she couldnt make sense out of everything, I saw everything. Did you call my name? Did you knock my door? Did you drink of me? Did you hold on to me?

Even though she could not hear nor see, I loved her. Deep within me, I loved her. I held her, hold her. I have never leave. I have any forsaken her. All along this difficult journey, I am always there. All I want, is for you to turn your eyes on me. Will you turn your eyes to me for this time? Will you turn your eyes to me? To me, to me...

Jesus

Gambatte kudasai Cai Yun!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-12T23:53:00.000-08:00

Exams are VERY SUPER near... haiz...feel like a warrior fighting a battle without preparation and weapon!! BUT, BUT, I have God help me...by his grace and mercy... (Coz dolast min work...heez...) Opps...

This month is learning to let go and let God, focusing on God, drawing deeper intimacy with God... :) Yes, let go and submit to him...

Happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

2008-02-05T03:04:00.001-08:00

Hey guys!!

Happy chinese new year!!! :) MAy all your wishes this year be fulfilled!! And yes...I missed my pineapple tart!! argh!! This year no pineapple tart!! :( haiz.... Yeah... go home spring cleaning now...bye bye... :)

Happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

2008-02-05T03:04:00.000-08:00

* L.O.V.E *

2008-02-01T01:12:00.000-08:00

This is what I saw in the email, I think the words written are so touching...

What Love means to a 4-8 year old . .Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it.Touching words from the mouth of babes.A group of professional people posed this question to a groupof 4 to 8 year-olds, 'What does love mean?'The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone couldhave imagined. See what you think:

'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint hertoenails anymore.So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even whenhis hands got arthritis too. That's love.' Rebecca- age 8'

When someone loves you, the way they say your name isdifferent.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth. 'Billy - age 4'

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired. 'Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and shetakes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.' Danny - age 7

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.' Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start witha friend who you hate,' Nikka - age 6(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then hewears it everyday.' Noelle - age 7

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man whoare still friends even after they know each other so well.' Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared.I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddywaving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.' Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybodyYou don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'Clare - age 6 'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.' Elaine-age 5

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.' Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia oncetalked about a contest he was asked to judge.
The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.The winner was a four year old child whose next doorneighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost hiswife.Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the oldgentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, thelittle boy said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

So, aren't these kids so lovely? Then what about my view of love? Share with you guys then,

Let me share my view of love. Do you know what is really love? I never knew what love is until I felt it. True love is secured when you know that you can always rely on someone for help in every situation. When i cried, someone is there to cry with me and lending me his shoulder to lie on, when i fall, someone carries me and held me by his right hand, when i laugh, he laughs with me, when i'm feeling down and blue, he tapped me on the head and give me a warmth hug that ease my pain and sorrows away. When i'm in trouble, I looked to him for help and give me peace that i needed most. He gives me shelter in rainny days, and give me joy in sunny days. when i did silly things, he puts a gentle smile on his face. Everything and anyhting that happens in my life, I share with him because i know that he is the most available to seek to than anyone in this busy society. When i do not know how to complete my work, he gives me wisdom and guidance.

And yes, there is such person, he is my most beloved friend Jesus Christ. He wants to be friend with you and extend this awesome love to you because he IS love. Will you allow him to do so? :) Let this year's valentine's day be a special one to celebrate with your true lover of your soul... :)

Naysa

Time for pleasures for ur eyes!! :)

2008-02-01T00:50:00.000-08:00

This is my favourite photo with all the jie mei men!!
Photo taken at minds cafe celebrating my bdae last yr!
Intro(frm left of back): Yizi (my lovely cousin), Li wee (cute sister-of- christ), Siling(my beloved buddy)
(frm left of front): Chye hong (my cool sister), Me! :)

Another photo taken last year, celebrating Kala's bdae!

P/S: She's always busy...Missed going out with her!

Of Course, not to forget my beloved family! :)

Intro (frm left-right): pretty mummy, cute chey hua, pretty er jie,

Me, smart smart de da jie (cai xia), handsome daddy... :)

Not forgetting to intro my church sister, eileen (2nd frm left)

Saw this happy babe? She's my spiritual mummy, Roxanne! :)

A pity that's the only photo I've for her... :(

More photos coming soon!! :) good things are worth waiting k... :)

I don't want temporary happiness, I only want everyone around me to be healthy and happy

2008-01-30T23:16:00.000-08:00

This few weeks are not too good and bad...

perhaps share the good times first.... Praise God that our cell group together with our soon-to-be spiritual daddy, Leo, went to Eh (as what I usually called when I'm in YFC last year) to listen to Dr Gary's preaching and waiting anxiously for him to minister to us through his powerful phophecy... Praise God that I get to know certain things which has been bothered in my heart for quite some time...I get to know my ministry and get more affirmation frm God...Certain things which he shared, I was quite stunned and find it hard to believe actually...And i must say, his worship is very solid lei...While he prayed for us, he sang songs with prophecy...ao good...God give him such a great gift... :) Praise God... He said that me and my sis is a bright and talented gal...I was kinda stunned coz i would never see myself bright... opps...Despite that I know I'm fearfully and wonderfully made by God...

what other good thing happen...Hmm...nothing lo...finish my project le...for adfs and fpr...meaning less work load... :)

Dreaded exams...exam coming...recently just bought new year clothes...however, I'm not happy with the new year clothes bought... I rather don have the new year clothes than losing something precious to me...

Tired of typing le...Anyway, wana praise soemone frm ps rol tribe...last week at sol1, me and my sister was seated nx to him...and we are supposed to share something significant that happen in our life during this week...and he was alone so we decided to communicate with him lo...then, surprisingly, after lesson, we are supposed to keep our chairs to the side, and he initiated to keep the chairs for us...heex...very gentlemen... :) very good... ya...so, my boyfrene better be a gentlemen...heez...It feels good to be 'served'... that;s the right attitude...so guys, please learn frm him...hahaha... :)

I love this song, beautiful lyrics...

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, "daughter" and "son"
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

As the lyrics says, "And He's been there all along, Watching for you down the road...He is watching...He's been there all along...He never LEAVES and never sleeps..so rest assured in his love and presence. His arms are open wide, His name is Jesus, He understands, He is the answer,You are looking for, So come home running... Come home,God says:" My child, come home... Here I am, here I am... "

Will you come back to God to his warmth and comfort that NO ONE can give? Trust him... you will not lose anything, instead you gained...

2008-01-20T22:09:00.000-08:00

Heez...My first tested publish photo!! :) Yupx... I'm the gal at the right in case you duno... The pretty gal on my left is Julia.. My Tp frene... :)

Will upload more photo asap de... Yoz.. Peeps...Get ready to see ur face being published on my blog k k!! :)

"Not all open doors are open doors of God...."

2008-01-20T21:00:00.000-08:00

Currently thinking of whether should i join Touch Young Arrow... (ATY)... This sudden decision was thought through since yesterday... I do not know what is the real reason for joining and wad is not... but i thank God that He stop me frm making a harsh decision to join out of certain unacceptable desire... So i told the Lord, if it was ur plan that I should join, Pls give me confirmation...A "yes" frm U Lord, I'll go...If Not, I will not sign up just because I FEEL that I should...

Many short comings along the way that could ba a hinderances to signing up... Firstly, I scared I'm not too good to impart skills and knowledge to the kids...Secondly, duno if I really have the desire and could be commited to imparting skills and love to this kids for long-term... Thirdly, wouldn't wana join because I've the accompany of my cell sisters...That wouldn't be fair for the kids....Forthly, I've to be accountable to God and the kids' parents if I ever taught the wrong values...

Yet, On the contrary, I would love to be a vessel to be used by God anytime and anywhere, freely mould by God to impart to these kids who needs love and concern for this "seems cruel and cold" world. I want to be something useful...This year 20 years old le...Don do anything useful I duno if I'll regret at a later age then do something for the society...Trying to link up all the bits and pieces of talents God bless me with and the ministry I can do in the future...Yet, Not much clue...Trying to make sense in alot of things..But, this world is not ,making any sense at all.. Just as how God told me... So, what exactly is it?? Kinda impatient... I'm so sorry Lord...

Meanwhile, life in school, especially this week is kinda dry and stress up and busy...2 quizes this wk and a mountain of notes to cram into my exausted brain...Dry brain...all brain juice, or rather, all essences are being squeezed out le...Nvm... Let my brain be filled with 'JC water'... :) heez...in case you do not know what is the famous 'JC water' in FCBC... It's Jesus Christ water...heez... :) For those who drink of him shall NOT thirst any longer! :)

Well well... Since now i'm in such a mood to type my blog, I shall update you guys with what;s happening in Muar trip that I went during last year dec... :) (heez...though I still have a report due 2mr...eh...but lazy ar...opps...)

It was an extreme tremendous outing or rarther my FIRST overseas trip in my life...Can you imagine?? My first!! And yet the most memorable one...Not because of the place I went or any nice scenery that I saw...But the very fact that I can meet God and dwell in his peaceful presence and recieving much healing and breakthrough frm Him... It was truly, awesome! God is sooooooooooooooooo awesome!!! :) Beyond my description...

Well...due to time constraint and laziness...I shan't ecplain every single things that I encountered... The most I can say is, He healed me frm car sickness that I used to have since young... I admit that since young, I'll vomit and feel nausea after every ride frm my dad or travelling by public transportation...never fail k...And in sec, I was better...But till one day, the motion sickness was back again...giving me much discomfort...

The prob cont till the day I went to Muar...I found out that we need to travel about four and a half hour to Muar...I was like... @_@ !!! ... argh!! I was afraid that I'll vomit out like how our famous Merlion has been doing in Singapore river...hahaha...very "sia shuay" one lei...so i started to plan- "Implementation to inhibit motion sickness.." I decided to buy the motion sickness pill since there is such thing...However, the price is "beautiful"...hahaha...rather ex lo...so not worth it... Den while I was considering, the Lord just spoke to me gently, "can you trust Me that I'' see you through this motion sickness?"... And immeditately, I felt that God doesn't want me to take the pill but simply trust in Him... But out of little faith, I said to myself, "ok, God, I'll NOT buy the pill...I'll buy plums...haha.." :P... but God is good...In His grace and mercy, I didnt felt ANY motion sickness on the THREE days of the trip...Instead, miraculously, I enjoyed the bus ride though there are many bumpy rides...Real bumpy rides...where the gradients of the road journey is really steep... :)

Hallelujah!! Praise God... I reali praise you... And furthermore, I felt the more deeper and complete healing from God in my rejections faced since young...All the disappointment frm ppl and the fear of failures and the worries and anxiety and every negative things were bind up by God... Just like a bundle of threads...being bundle up so tightly...And I thought last year were supposed to be the year of Victory yet I didn felt so...But before the last day in Muar during the second night of the worship, The Lord just uses Rong Hui to affirm me of the talents God gave and also told me that I had victory over car sickness... Hallelujah... :) Thanks to Rong Hui for the heart that serve... Praise God! And i enjoyed ur accompany lots too!!

Also, specially thanks to Roxanne mummy for praying for me despite she had her own issue to dealt with God...I truly thank you and appreciate your effort for praying for me...I know that the Lord is delighted with you for the obedience... :) I thank God for the healing that God had granted you too!! :) And also thanks to yi zi, my sweet sweet cousin...You are simply so sweet...Thanks for the concerns raise to me throughout the bus journey...I'm simply so touched... :) And thank you that through you, God teaches me alot more about His characters... :) Thanks also to our spiritual Dad, Leo for praying and helping me to recieve much healing as a form of my real daddy and the solid worship (without refering to any scores, maybe one day I should reali be ur "Tu di" in picking up more guitar skills!!).. thanks!! Last but not least, Thank You Chee Chiong (sorry, always unsure the speeling of ur name)... for the great song written that minister to many people...Bless you to continue shine for God and using ur song that Let Holy Spirit touch many broken souls and allowing God to do his tremendous wonders in each and every single individual lives... :) Praise God and i'm happy for the gifting you had...for I see that it can soar great height.. :)

I guess, I'll miss our 'happy family' meal le... :) and i must sya that the trip to Muar is an eye-opening one to me! :) Praise God for the opportunity.. :) And I'm so looking forward to the many miracles that is awaiting me! And though I may have been healed by God, I still need to rely on God for better life! :) This year of Sabbath does not promise no worried, but promise REST frm the worried mindset that we can depend on God, trusting His heart because we know his character!! Yeah!!! :D

Why m I so naggy today ar...type such a long grandmother story...heez... before I end, share with you guys a beautiful song with the beautiful lyrics that speaks to me in my dowest moment of life (through my lovely er jie) since you guys have been very patient to read through my blog! This is your reward :) --->

This song is dedicated to all my beloved ones...my family and all that I know... I treasured you guys! :)

[Trust His heart]

All things work for our good
Though sometimes we can't see how they could
Troubles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes that bind us to the truth

Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway goes dim
And you just can't see Him
Remember He's still on the throne

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
Trust His heart

He sees the master plan
He holds the future in His hand
Don't live as those who live no hope
All our hope is found in Him
We see the present clearly
He sees the first and last
And like a tapestry

He's wearing you and me
To someday be just like Him

He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what's best for you

Nice lyrics right? :) I learned to appreciate beautiful lyrics... :) Lyrics that may seems ordinary to man, but deep within are the love of God , the love that God longs to give His people...All kinds of people...No matter good or bad..For He is love... He just wants to love His creation.. Can you imagine with me? He is opening up His gentle and warm arms welcoming you into His awesome presence and love... :) Jesus Loves you... :)

An ordinary gal, extraordinary in God's eyes...
Naysa (:

God's Protection is so real and awesome for description...

2008-01-18T00:10:00.000-08:00

Few days ago, I nearly got my right arms burned...Thinking about it ar, i cant imagine what the consequences would be without the Lord's protection on me...Before i share, just wana give thanks to God for his faithfulness for going ahead of me and thank him for allowing me to feel his protection so real and unexpectedly....

The incident happen in my FPQAP lab...That day is a trial lab...And we are supposed to take some samples up to test for microbes using plate count method...Upon reflecting about the incident that day, i reali thk God lo..Coz before that He actuali already sort of protecting me frm serious harm...(My frene turn the intensity of the fire frm the bunsen burner smaller which usually she didn do)...Then I sort of "give myself trouble" by telling her our fire too small...ask her turn higher...(haiz...if i don ...) Well, anyway, i was so engrossed in taking out the food sample and didn realise that I was so close to the bunsen burner (in blue flame some more,meaning the hottest part of the fire). Suddenly, i felt quite intense heat on my arms and when I looked, ohmy goodness!!! My labcoat is burning and with a hole... :O i was so shocked and immediately went to wash off the burned part.

Then, I think what shocked me is that my hands weren't burn or werent pain at all....I was quite astonished...so shocked to the extend that I looked at the teacher, the first word that came out of my mouth is "thank God!! I'm alright..." But the teacher mei liang xin de lo...aft i say le she juz walk off like that without any concerns like that... -_-""stupid teacher...

Anyway, the main point is if without God's protection, I wouldnt be fine sitting here undating my blog! And cant imagine that the nx one sec, my beautiful is ruined...so, in conclusion: HALLELUJAH!! PRAISE GOD!! :)

And he is our refuge and protection...

2008-01-17T22:27:00.000-08:00

Jesus is our shield and protect against our enemy...=]..Cute picture i saw online:

My friend, Jesus - He rocks my world =]

Welcome Welcome 2008!!! :)

2008-01-04T02:56:00.000-08:00

Yeah 2008! You are finally here le! Year of sabbath = REST !!

year 2007 past by so fast...but good! Frankly speaking, Cant wait to get out of my school soon...heex... well well... today brain monitor shut down le...So i shall update more details next time!

Details like: The long waited photos posted up!
Photos taken and sharing in Muar (last dec 07)
My Year of sabbath
The truth unfolds! :)

Heez...great advertisement ba...but...always got prob w loading pics de..sob sob... K K..good things are meant to be waited! :) Cya!

Yun Yun :)

"Not by might, not by power, but by the spirit of God..."

2007-11-29T23:58:00.000-08:00

Feeling so sick recently...Stupid running nose...Wasted so much tissue and killing many trees... Thank God I did not go to my school study field trip..I cant imagine if I go for that field trip recently, I would feel more sick lo... Thk God... But, term test is around the corner... Feel so sianx to study...Some more...Now sick le cannot even focus...haiz...Dont know why, I'll start to fear exams and shun from studying... Wierdo right?

Recently was rather amazed by the results I got back for most of my subjects quizes... I was super stunned lo...I tot I would fail most as i did last minute study... :P ... The Lord reminded me once again that indeed, most things are really by God's power where human are aren't able to do...Really thk God for the Grace and Mercy He gave... This year is really a year I need God's dependent alot... He really taught me to learn to rely on him even for very mild incidences... And of coz, by relying on God, the results is 80% better then by my own effort...

I'm super excited for the muar trip that me, rox, yi zi, chavvone are going!! Eh...Though it's my first time going overseas (sad to say...) I've so much redundant worries and questions... What if kana attack there or so fore...rubbish lo...But, I have a rather strong feeling that I should go for this trip. Still trying to discover the main reasons for going there. I tell myself that this trip is gona be a trip where I tell myself everything is going to be set afresh... Just like after the year of sabbath, during the year of jubilee, everything set back to original... Heez... Though FCBC states nx year to be the yr of sabbath...I see it like jubilee..haha... Opps... And that trip shall be a good rest and eye opening one...Moreover, I'm going with a bunch of lovely ladies!! All fun-to-be gals...Yupx... :))

Feel so wierd.. dont know why i see today as a special day..heez.. so silly... well... this few days i had the duty of being a counsellor... It feels so "shiok" yet at a loss... I really thk God...that through my frenes...I realise the perception of looking down on my self-worth should be changed lo...I always thought no one would treasure me as a frene...But, I truly thk God where my frenes gave me the trust to share with me certain things... Though many times I can fully understand what my frenes are going through, Coz I also go through similar trials as them and infact quite used to such trials, But I dont know what to advice and how should I help other then sparing them a pair of listening ears... Truly thk God that He is training me to learn to listen instead of talk...haha... Perhaps this could be one of what God wans me to do in my ministry next time??

I'm sooooooo desperate to find out what is exactly my ministry... sometime do dislike it when i only get a few clues or not at all...hahaha...But, It's ok..I will wait...Gd things are meant to be wait...

Recently rox also shared in cell group to let us pause and reflect about this year.. I had reflected much and found out alot of changes in terms of my spiritual life and perception, many repetative, stangnants, joyous moments where many lives saved... She did mention about thinking through what we gona do after we graduate..to tink about what we reali tinking of planning for the future... And I thought I would wana want a break from being a study geak and killing brain cells... Reali feel so much to pick up skills and hobbies which i wanted to long time ago...I wanted to really learn dancing...Those modern dance and i'm serious... so interested lo... wana make my skeletons and joints flexible before getting rigid in the olden days... I love piano lots too... But I want to learn everything from scratch...but...the moment i think of all this... The $$$ sign came to my mind...haiz... why? Tell mi why?? everything nid MONEY!!! argh... but... God will provide!! Nothing is impossible for God after that piano incident...heex... :D ....

I love baking...thought of opening my own shop den design my cakes with creativity!! Wana leran designing graphics... Don wana go into science field in the future... Wana design for advertisements... Teaching? Hmm... a challenge... Recently take up teaching chinese to a P5 boy... He is rather cute...But he likes to "sha jiao" to me...He loves his monkey alot and always play that malau during tuition...and therefore he cannot focus...I dono how to discipline...don like scolding kids coz they will play taraunt... Don wana inflict unhappiness to the boy in tuition... Wan teach him in a positive environment... haiz... still love teaching though...It's my ambission since young... :)

I love this lyrics lots... Dono why...though don quite fully understand the meaning...BUt this songs touches me when i listen to it once I was down...

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through,Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete in You.

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life. I look to You, Lord.
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in..

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You

Tired le..need rest... tata! :)

Tired....

2007-11-07T03:08:00.001-08:00

Yesterday while researching about stress management, i discover why i'm so easily absentminded and forgetful accidentally... It was because I'm too stress up... haiz...

Cant help it to be stress with certain things in skool...

The party for er jie's 21st bdae is a success i can say... :) she bought home lots of gits... and well, of coz we gona carry them back home...haiz...Kinda funny, all of us was still tinking if its our 21st bdae what we gona plan?? haha...I tot i wouldnt want something grant...Perhaps just something small and cosy with my closest buddy and family and loved ones to celebrate this special day with mi.... :)

And, I'm still trying to figure out how to use this blog! I guess I should be the world's No. 1 IT idiot!! hahaha...

New skills picked up... (:

2007-11-02T05:16:00.000-07:00

Yeah... Finally, the dream of getting a "piano" was fulfilled...
haha... Thk God for such a great gift!! Didn expect the impossible to be possible...Also thks to Mr Joshua uncle for being so obedient to God's comment.. hahaha...
Hmm...trying to pick up more skills through the net...And den realise...ITS SO HARD!!! Kepp yawning when reading the notes... Opps... :P Nevertheless, I want Jia you!!! heez... Never give up!!! hahaha...

Finally it's friday le... always waiting for this day... 2mr gona celebrate er jie's bdae...was sooooooo looking forward to it!! And yupx...hope that all our effort are not wasted...Just to see a smile in my sis's face...

Recently was super fatigue with the amount of projects dumped right infront of us...haiz...only can ask for God's strength...yupx...He has always been my strength and source of hope for each new day!! He never failed to sustain me!! Love you Lord!! heez.. (:

Learning to Trust His heart

2007-10-22T22:56:00.000-07:00

Everything seems to changed...

I dreaded school especially this new term where everything seems changed...A different classmates, different subjects, different kind of stress to take up...

After my 19th yrs birthday, I told myself to live the rest of my past 18 th years a different one..Immediately after I prayed that prayer, Temptation came in...The lord reali lead mi to trust His heart...I told myself I wana study more about nutition and in the end i got into food science...I've gotta go into PBPN which is the hardest subject and I know and God knows I cannot cope well with it.Though it'll be my interest, but, something I'll study till ~~~~ I did appeal...Perhaps this is an act of not trusting the Lord, really ask GOd for forgiveness...However, I've got the news that my appeal is not of success. Though the subjects that i got now i know is what i can cope, but it's not of my interest. After recieving the news, I'm kinda confused. To be happy with the news or not? It's so contradicting. I dont know what to do then to fully trust the Lord during this duifficult times.

The LOrd is good and He IS. During this time of trials, God assure me of His great love and emmanuel, the LOrd is with us. He really teaches me what is really call faith and walking a path that seems to be difficult and dark, a path I cant see but you know that everything is in God's control. SOmeone blessed mi a verse from Isaiah 46:4 ytd... This verse truly encourage me that the LOrd will sustain me throuhgout my life even until my hair turn grey. I must say that it is during this difficult times and moment, I know deep in my heart that the Lord truly understand me more than anyone in this earth in my heart instead of understanding through my mind.

Since, i'm called naysa, so shall it be that I'll wait upon the Lord to show me more...And now, I can only tell myself there is reason why I got into the current class, and always holding on to the support from the LOrd for He never let me go..I must Jia You!! FOr the sake of my Father who loves me so much.And everything I do, I must do it for ur sake.You're my boss Lord, help me to be a good steward to be responsible to take care of the things you gave me..Help me to do what I say...

The Lord is Great and He Himself is love. For where there is perfect love, all fears are gone.. Thank you God for the mercy and faithfulness...

Do you know what love truly is and feels? Ask Jesus, the Lover of our soul today.. :)

Finally, finally!!!

2007-07-12T03:21:00.000-07:00

Hi hi everyone if u happen to see see, peep peep my blog... :)

hahaha...finally, i got my blog...but it was reali reali plain... :( well..recently was really busy with the mountains of workloads...like projects and assignments...it seems never ending!!! stress siax.. BUT!! despite all these stress, i noe that my God Jesus is faithful...i can do all things tru Him who strengthen mi always!!! :)

well...let mi gif a short intro bout myself first...incase u duno...heez...i'm cai yun aka naysa...Currently 18+ going 19 in ard 2 mths more?? haha... stuying in Tp-temasek poly in applied food science and nutrition... ^-^ v heez.....
well..i'm a rather tokative gal...simply love to tok alot of crap...(heez...maybe nx time i shd tok "lobster instead of tok crab??" hahaha....well...my dearest frene shd noe this... i guess while reading this statement they muz been nodding their head real hard... hahaha...
the best gift i recieved in my life...is to know and recieve Jesus as my Lord and Saviour...REALLY!!! My life have been transformed (in a positive way of course) after recieving Him...Now i reali noe what is call LOVE...I guess this love beats no other love... :)

I love hanging out with all my beloved frenes, buddies and church sisters and spiritual mummy!! :) i guess i muz have been very blessed to have them in my life... i love my family too!! :) i like strumming my guitar worshipping God, playing with my flexi (if i've chance i'll post up his pic...heex), cooking (wana try my cooking?no assurance policy k...) , sketching some rubbishes on the paper...and of coz slack and day dream!!!

Hmm so far i only tot of these to intro...heez... ok... more update soon at naysa-miracle-of-God@blogspot.com heez... :) see ya!

Latest happening: my church encounter camp 2mr!!! so excited for it!!! :D

Accessed on: 12th july 2oo7
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naysa's miracles

Encouragement from My God! :)

God Spoke... :)

God's words specially for you :)

Transforming destiny

How Many Empty Jars Would You Bring?

All out of control

Song Intro

Dreaded SIP

Thanksgiving over the weeks :)

A very important email I saw...wana share to all...

Everyone changes?

Itchy Itchy Itchy

Naysa DJ ... Song intro!! (:

A day with my beloved

Gambatte kudasai Cai Yun!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

*** L.O.V.E ***

Time for pleasures for ur eyes!! :)

I don't want temporary happiness, I only want everyone around me to be healthy and happy

"Not all open doors are open doors of God...."

God's Protection is so real and awesome for description...

And he is our refuge and protection...

Welcome Welcome 2008!!! :)

"Not by might, not by power, but by the spirit of God..."

Tired....

New skills picked up... (:

Learning to Trust His heart

Finally, finally!!!

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